Imperfectly Perfect

I am supposed to be perfect, according to my mum. I have really good grades, I'm not needy, I don't swear, I don't smoke or do drugs, drinks a little bit, but almost nothing. In her, and many people's eyes, I'm a great example of a perfect teenager. Facts. Except this one thing. I'm gay.

I live in a society that is very much homophobic; you can often hear on news that a gay couple has been beaten up or even murdered. It's a small country in Europe and I absolutely don't like it. Many discriminations are known to take a place in my country. The country I live in is Croatia.

I am, on the other hand, a complete opposite. I support every race, religion and definately sexual orientation, because I am myself gay.

Then…many people like my personality, that's a fact, I heard people say most of the good things about me, and except that, I don't want this to seem ridged, but I also heard many people talk about how I'm good – looking. I got long straight black hair, brown eyes, I'm tall and fit. I hope I didn't confuse you, so let me get this straight, I absoultely do not think I'm perfect in any way. I'm just not a typical teenager.

Boys? Well, last month, a few guys who had a crush on me asked me out. I turned down every guy, of course. I get a lot of that and it's starting to really annoy me. All I want is a girl.
Actually, the girl. She's a bit older than me, but the way we look at each other, wow. She's the one that I want.

So tell me…what should I do? How should a ''perfect'' teenage girl work her way out?
Highschool00 Highschool00
18-21
2 Responses Jan 15, 2013

I just wanted to tell you I think you're really brave and it's awesome that you're staying true to yourself despite all. The world needs more "perfect" people like you.
I don't really know what you should do- I don't have enough experience yet. Sorry.

This will probably be the best advice you'll ever get. Don't do anything- because love comes when you don't do anything. I dated boys for 7 years and broke up and developed one or two crushes on some other girls and nothing happened. Then when I stopped looking, came my girlfriend and the love of my life, asked me out, and that was it. I know it doesn't sound extremely logical, but trust me. Don't do anything about it. By the way, my country is very intolerant too, I could go to jail for being a lesbian.

hey. thanks for commenting. ...jail? really? where are u from if u dont mind me asking?