I Hate How My Husband Makes Me Feel..
I am 23 years old, my husband is 48.
When we meet 4 years ago things were so different, he cared about what I had to say, he payed attention to me, he chased me, he was thoughtful and caring and sexually attracted to me, he helped around the house and was the most amazing man I had ever meet. That was then.. but 2 years ago everything changed, a mental illness in my husbands daughter (we are a blended family) caused a huge rift in the house, he did handle and couldnt deal with her extreame temper. Then he got depression, and I was told after having our son I had PCOS and it caused a 20kg weight gain.
I asked my husband why he didnt want to have sex anymore and he said it was because I got fat, this is something i have never forgot it broke my heart, he looks at thought skinny women, and its not like I am HUGE he doesnt kiss me anymore, he doesnt even look at me, he wont talk to me, he doesnt help around the house and he doesnt copy with the problems his daughter has.
My heart breaks every day, he yells and gets angry over silly things like if I watch a tv show that he does not like.
I have always had a low selfestem, and he always worked hard it give me one, now its like he loves seeing me hurt and pulling it all back down.
I hate the way he makes me feel about myself. I Hate myself and my body.