The Government Is Killing Me

I TO AM A LONER, IDO NOT LIKE TO BE A LONER BUT I AM WHAT I AM. I DO NOT FIT INTO SOCIETY, I DO NOT TRUST PEOPLE, I WAS ABUSED AS A CHILD IN THE PUBLIC SCHOOL SYSTEM AS A 5 YEAR OLD THIS CONTINUED FOR ANOTHER 7 YEARS. THE WALL WAS BUILT. LATER IN LIFE I WAS SEXUALY ABUSED BY A PRIEST WHILE RECOVERING FROM LIFE SAVING SURGERY, I WAS 20. TO KEEP AWAY FROM PEOPLE I LEARNT TO SURF AROUND AGE 10 AND FOR THE NEXT 25 YEARS I HID ALONE IN THE WATER ONLY COMING OUT WHEN I HAD TO . ( SCHOOL, WORK, NIGHTTIME ETC.) I CANNOT HOLD A JOB THOUGH I HAVE NO PROBLEM FINDING WORK. I HAVE FOUGHT HARD AGAINST THE ANXIETY AND DEPRESSION THAT HAUNTS ME, AND HAVE HAD MANY JOBS BUT SOONER OR LATER I BECOME OVERWHELMED WITH FEAR, ANXIETY, DEPRESSION AND QUIT. I HAVE NO CHOICE IF I DONT LEAVE THE JOB MY ANXIETY ETC WILL KILL ME. I CAN NO LONGER COPE AND NEED TIME OUT, I DO NOT HAVE THE FINANCIAL RESOURCES TO TAKE TIME OUT, THE GOVERNMENT WILL NOT SUPPORT ME THOUGH I HAVE PAID HUNDREDS OF THOUSANDS IN TAX. THE GOVERNMENT WANTS ME WORKING REGARDLESS OF THE OUTCOME. I HAVE BEEN FIGHTING ALL MY LIFE AGAINST THE DAMAGE DONE TO ME WHILE IN A GOVERNMENT SCHOOL ( MARMION PRIMARY SCHOOL)  IT WOULD BE NICE TO BE NORMAL,