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I Am a Loner

Pretending

By: DarkAngel0309
Written on August 22nd, 2012
That’s all I’ve ever done in my life.. Pretending with everyone around me. It feels like I can never be good enough and unwanted to people. UGH I hate myself when I look in the mirror I don’t like what I see, I pretend otherwise. When people ask me if I’m happy I always say I am or I’m okay when reality I’m not where close to being that way. I like I don’t belong here or anywhere… Why most I feel and think this way? People don’t understand what goes on in my mind on a daily bases. It hurts the most knowing I have to pretend, to feel unwanted and to wear a smile that cracks. I can NEVER tell my family or friends about what I’m thinking because they have their own problems and issues that they don’t have to worry about mine. Their all just better off without me around not like it’ll matter to them one way or the other anyway. Sad but true!!!

By: DarkAngel0309
Age: 22-25 , Female
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  • billz270
    billz270

    What you should do is, find some people who you can relate things to. Conversations flow better. Improve the present moment. Make ur smile wider :)

    Feb 9
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  • thecarer
    thecarer

    Are you trying to compare yourself to others?if so please stop.As we are all individuals so we have differences.At the end of each day ask yourself,have I done the best I can? if answer yes that's all any one can ask but don't set goals to high as this will not be condusive as your setting yourself up to fail.However please talk to a family member as yes they do have their problems but they can help you also having heart to heart can clear the air,and you might just be able to help them.Please talk to someone!

    Oct 2, 2012
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