That’s all I’ve ever done in my life.. Pretending with everyone around me. It feels like I can never be good enough and unwanted to people. UGH I hate myself when I look in the mirror I don’t like what I see, I pretend otherwise. When people ask me if I’m happy I always say I am or I’m okay when reality I’m not where close to being that way. I like I don’t belong here or anywhere… Why most I feel and think this way? People don’t understand what goes on in my mind on a daily ba
ses. It hurts the most knowing I have to pretend, to feel unwanted and to wear a smile that cracks. I can NEVER tell my family or friends about what I’m thinking because they have their own problems and issues that they don’t have to worry about mine. Their all just better off without me around not like it’ll matter to them one way or the other anyway. Sad but true!!!