Confused Loner

On one hand, I try to be a nice, friendly person, but I've never been able to keep up a friendship for more than a couple of years. They all, no matter how close, somehow fizzle out after a couple of years, tops. I'm uber-sensitive and have come to the conclusion that relationships have not been worth the pain. Perhaps that's a reason right there; people sense that about me. But, I can't change...I've always thought to myself "even Hitler had friends, so how bad can I be?"

Even with family, it's the same. People ask me over for holidays, but that's it. No one has ever asked me to be godparent to any of their kids....

When I do get together with people, I do enjoy it, but I also can't wait to be by myself again. I love my own company and am quite content doing my own thing. Maybe that's why second invites are rarely extended my way....
vlinder7 vlinder7
1 Response Sep 23, 2012

I'm a lot like you! I understand the small social life you have, yet you like doing your own thing. I don't have family or friends around. So I spend a lot of time on my own.