Schizoid Personality Disorder

I had been suffering SPD since I was in High school. I am shy speaking in front of the class. Whenever my classmates asked me to borrow laptop from other sections, my heartbeat turns so fast and I tremble. I am afraid of introducing myself to new persons around me. I lack confidence of myself. But all of the time, all I want to say is I love being a loner.
Being a loner is hard but still fun. It is hard because, someday, you will be needing to socialize and relate with other people in your work or at any place, and it is very hard for an SPD sufferer to cope up. It is happy because you are yourself everytime. Nobody will force you to do things that you do not want. You are dependent and more importantly, a loner is passionable in his works and hobbies. But as the saying goes, " No man is an island," we still need other people to be able to succeed in life. I hope that someday this illness will be cured.
The problem is fear that I may have failed in life, but it's all right, everything has a purpose. I still want to experience being with someone, with a true friend and friends..
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1 Response Nov 26, 2012

If you feel distressed and desire interaction with other people, you are not a true Schizoid. Rather, I'd say you probably have Social Anxiety Disorder.