And A Little Paranoid Too, Maybe?

I don't know, it all feels like, so fake ya know? When I'm trying to meet new people or socialize with people I know it's as if I have to follow pre-defined steps on the conversation so as to look normal, for it to flow "smoothly"... I don't try to be cool or some childish thing like that, but I'm constantly thinking "nah, he/she doesn't wanna hear/talk about that", constantly looking for small hints or signals that that person might be making fun of me, or simply be bored of talking to me .
I usually feel like people are judging me even before they talk to me, and I don't have time to make prejudiced people like me, so I usually think they dislike me while we're talking and maybe start imagining exasperated looks or something.
Well, I've been kind of an outcast since high school, so I guess this is simply the person I grew up to be
Lonely103 Lonely103
22-25, F
Jan 15, 2013