LameI am a loser. I've never gone to a "cool party" before, I've never won any competition that I've participated in, and I am the least popular child. I have always wanted to go to a party, but my brother always tells me I am not allowed to go and when his girlfriend tried to convince him he got upset. I am pretty sure it's because he is embarrassed of me. Who wants to have their awkward, overweight sister going to a party with them and ruining their popularity? I remember in elementary I was in a community basketball league and I was placed in a team that always went against my cousins team. My team ALWAYS lost. We never won a single game the entire season. I never won anything, I remember crying a lot as a kid when I noticed that my brothers and cousins always won while I never won anything. I am not popular in my family, not that they hate me, it's just that they like my big brothers more. Every time I go and surprise them with a visit, they ask if my brother came with me and when I say no they seem so disappointed that it's just me. I feel so pathetic.
Update: January 2, 2014
Wow, I wrote this so long ago and looking at it now just blows me away. A lot has changed since I wrote this, and I'd like to give thanks for the positive comments that were left on my story because they really helped make me feel better. I've been working on myself mentally and physically. I used to put myself down all the time for all the things I couldn't do, like basketball which is ridiculous because I never even liked the sport! I still can't play a sport very well against my brothers or cousins, but you know what I realized? I don't care. I never was interested in sports, I always loved drawing, painting, writing, anything to do with art I loved it! You know what else I realized? That I'm pretty damn good at it (: I'm learning to love myself and my self-confidence is at the highest it's ever been (which is still pretty low, but like I said I'm learning)! Ever since I stopped caring what my family thought and started doing my own thing, I've noticed how much they've started wanting me around more and how interesting they find me when I act like myself. I've been working out I even managed to accomplish (and exceed) my 2013 new year's resolution to lose 10 pounds, losing a little more than 20 pounds. Now my 2014 resolution is to drop another 10 pounds and go from there. I really do appreciate this website because of all the awesome people on here who help people like me when they are down and need a little push. You guys rock!
Well thanks for reading and I hope you have a goodnight/day where ever you are (:
Paramount2play 18-21, F 3 Responses 0 Dec 15, 2012