WTF? Everything I touch turns to ****. I am hated by everyone, have no friends, have never had any sucess at anything. I'm now 42, stuck in a **** town, with no hope for the future. Not a day goes by without me thinking about hurting myself and /or others. I am so frustrated with being denied any happiness whatsoever from this world. I really hope I can just die a painless death before something tragic happens.