In the Here and Now, I Am Not ...In the here and now, I am NOT a loser, but I can't help feeling like it more often than not. And I don't know why I feel that way- I have so many friends and they will tell me that they like what I do as an artist and musician, that I am a nice guy and a good person and that they appreciate our friendship. Yet I spend so much time alone and lonely. People, I guess, assume that if I'm talented and a nice guy and all that stuff that I don't need them or want to talk to them, or SOMETHING. For some reason, I don't have a nuclear circle of friends, a crew to hang out with who stays in touch with each other on a constant basis. I don't have a best friend, I don't know anyone who calls everyday, I don't know anyone I can see everyday, I haven't dated in a very long time. And these are all things I think I want, and I think about it a lot, but there's never anyone who comes along who will be my friend and not want more from me than I can give. I don't need someone to take advantage of me or use me for something, I just need friends I can spend time with and do things with. I don't know anyone like that, and I can't seem to make connections with people I want to have in my life. I may not be a loser, but my life as it is doesn't impress me either.
HairyDood 36-40, M 3 Responses 3 Jan 20, 2007