In the Here and Now, I Am Not ...

In the here and now, I am NOT a loser, but I can't help feeling like it more often than not. And I don't know why I feel that way- I have so many friends and they will tell me that they like what I do as an artist and musician, that I am a nice guy and a good person and that they appreciate our friendship. Yet I spend so much time alone and lonely. People, I guess, assume that if I'm talented and a nice guy and all that stuff that I don't need them or want to talk to them, or SOMETHING. For some reason, I don't have a nuclear circle of friends, a crew to hang out with who stays in touch with each other on a constant basis. I don't have a best friend, I don't know anyone who calls everyday, I don't know anyone I can see everyday, I haven't dated in a very long time. And these are all things I think I want, and I think about it a lot, but there's never anyone who comes along who will be my friend and not want more from me than I can give. I don't need someone to take advantage of me or use me for something, I just need friends I can spend time with and do things with. I don't know anyone like that, and I can't seem to make connections with people I want to have in my life. I may not be a loser, but my life as it is doesn't impress me either.
HairyDood HairyDood
36-40, M
2 Responses Jan 20, 2007

getting like minded friends is not easy always....but its not impossible aswell....just keep yourself a bit open and easy to approach......<br />
things will work out fine slowly.......

hey mann youur not alone there! It's moree common then smoking to go through loneliness on a day to day basis millions...! millions people throughouut the world consummed with loneliness. . ! It Could very well be a world epidemic. . . but youu didnt hear it fromm mee haha jks* but i too feel youur pain friends don't feel they have to be present or even perform checkups and still so much pain and suffering due to beiing so alonee with our thoughts. . but with that family sometimes works it's advantages and then it doesn't,, overwhelming and telling youu different that youur life is nothing! i caaan relate very much to your situation.. so if youu ever want to talk xD I Won't judgee nor bitee :) Goodlluckk (Y)