Near Or At Bottom

I can't remember the last time I felt happy. It has been years since I remembered what being happy was like. I get up. Have inner conversations with myself for at least 15 minutes to make myself go to work. I get to work. I am a pencil pusher. There is nothing about my job that contributes to progressing society. I gain and lose the same pound all year long. I am taking 1 class, and am failing miserably. I will not take another one when this is done. I hear people bullshit themselves all the time about how we should all achieve achieve achieve, but what about those of us who don't? I can not define the word loser any more than I can with my life as example. Its more than self pity, Its pathetic what I haven't achieved by now. I hate my life. I can't wait until this ride is over. This content is inappropriate for anyone with hope.

lessthan lessthan
1 Response Mar 1, 2009

Try and be grateful you at least have a job I guess.