A Constant Emptiness
I'm a love addict and have been since I was a teenager. I constantly find myself in love triangles usually with decent men where one is a lover and the other a long term partner. I keep cheating and stopping ( for obvious reasons) because I do love my partner and past partners. Sometimes I wonder am I even capable of love. I haven't been single since I was 16, I am a man junkie and looking for love and happiness in all the wrong places. I have hurt some good men and ruined so many relationships throughout my life. I'm looking for help but I live in a country that doesn't really recognise my addiction and I don't know what to do. I feel so alone and ashamed because I can't share this or my pain with anyone. I can't tell my friends because I'm afraid they'll judge me and what I do tell them is minimal. All I've ever wanted is to be happy and have a family with a loving husband. I only care for the simple life. I don't think I can ever be happy or I will ever fill the void. I am constantly hurting and real love is no where to be found.