A Constant Emptiness

You sound exactly like a woman I know... she's in her late forties now and still doing the exact same thing and just as aware of it as you. She won't try a poly relationship because she says she thinks it's wrong (or maybe just wants attention all for herself). Until you accept the consequences of even the smallest actions toward a man, you won't change. In reality, you don't have to. There's always be a new guy ready if you are anywhere near as good as she was in bed.

I am the same position as you, i have been with my husband for six years now and i have been caught talking to multiple men thoughout our relationship. Right now we are going through a seperation. I tried threapy, but the truth is that when i am trying to talk to someone else about my problem i cant seem to tell the truth. I feel like a crap because i just cant seem to be happy with one person and i dont know why it is that when the going gets tough i always seem to turn to any other man that gives me any attention! I wish you the best of luck in your situation and hope that you can find happiness and feel your void!

I feel your pain