He Stays, I'm the One Leaving...
I will be going back home to germany in a few weeks because my visa expires. I stayed in the states for more than a year... he stay's here of course. we don't know when we're going to see each other again. It might be years.... it's a horrible thing, and I wish I could do something against it, but I can't, and he can't either.
I feel so bad when I think about it, I don't want to leave him here all on his own, it will break his heart I know it. everytime we talk on the phone (cause even in the states we live 8 hours apart from each other) he starts talking about the short time we have left, and when and where we meet again, and what he has to plan till then, and how much there is to do... and I just feel helpless, because I now thats his way of trying to keep himself distracted.
I feel really bad tonight, that's why I'm writing this. The only thing I wish right now is he would be here with me, and we don't have to talk about me leaving soon. I feel like I am wasting time, but it's not possible till the end of august to see him again.... :(