I Am A Submissive Masochist.

I'm from a small town, so I never really knew what this was. I always wanted to be the bad guy playing childhood games so I would get punished. Over the past couple years I've learned about masochism and from the first time I heard about it I knew it described me. I know a sadist really well but he lives out of state and doesn't like controlling me over the computer/phone. My boyfriend has no idea how I feel, even though I've tried to hint about it.

I absolutely love pain. Pull my hair. Slap me. Cut me and make me bleed. No safe words because if you'll have to dominate me to cause me pain. To do that I'll trust you. I'll know you won't kill me. I don't want any control. Just hurt me. make me you're own personal **** *****. Show you are stronger than me and that you are above me. Humiliate me, and smile a sadistic smile. I love the pain. Please. I find it a huge turn ON! Force me to give you what you want. You can't hurt me to the point that I won't beg for more. To satisfy your sadistic side is all I want.