It's funny, I use to be the girl who always laughed, smiled and was just happy... Now I'm feeling numb and a mess.
anonymouschicky anonymouschicky
18-21, F
1 Response Aug 17, 2014

I lost someone very dear to me 3 months ago. She was my best friends and I was just about to tell her how I felt about her... She told me "Austin, all I've ever wanted was you... You respect me and I could be with you forever and I would never get sick of you..." The next day I went to her house to tell her how I felt about her and turns out she was killed by a drunk driver 30 minutes earlier... I was in ruin. I thought about killing myself... Doing drugs, cutting, starving.... I thought about it but I could never get myself to do it and now I understand why. I loved her with all my heart and I knew if she was still alive and saw me like this she would break down. She would have wanted me to move on and find happiness again. When I found this out my whole life changed... All I can ask is keep trying and if you EVER need help or advice message me and I'll be three to talk.

I'm so sorry for your lost. I will talk to you if I need help or advise, thank you ❤️