I Am Extremely Disorganized, Messy, Lazy And Frustrated!Hi,
I am not a hoarder, I have absolutely no problem throwing things away. Unfortunately, I think I am just lazy :( I am a hard worker at my job, have good relationships, but for some reason cannot seem to keep a clean house. I will get it cleaned, love it, but when I get home from work or even on the weekends all I want to do is watch t.v., sleep, play with my critters, etc. Anything but clean. I will say I am not home a lot on the weekends, but still no excuse. I am just fed up and really want to change this. I dont let anyone come into my house and coming home just puts me in a bad mood. Plus I have really bad allergies, and bad housekeeping with pets does not help at all. I will make goals for myself, lists, everything they say to do. But apparently I just dont have the drive to accomplish anything when it comes to my house. We also have bought a very old house that needs a lot of work, and I have no clue where to start. Actually I do have an idea, but seen to get overwhelmed when I think about trying to start. All of the other things that need done come to mind. I am not sure how to do it. We dont have the extra funds to hire someone to do the work that needs to be done to this house and I am so embarrassed that I wont let anyone come to help me out anyway. My husband is just as messy as I, which doesnt help. But at least know he doesnt hate me for it! We will make a plan and just never follow through. We are wanting to start a family, but I ended up saying "not yet" because I cant have a baby and live in this house the way it is. I have watched Hoarders, and no, its no where near that bad. But it is still horrible and gross. I am a psych major, so I know that just saying I want to change wont work, I have to make goals and follow through. One step at a time. Its so much easier said then done. In a counselor/professional way, I know what I need to do, but personally have no clue. That is why I have joined this group. To have someone else to talk with about the frustrations of being a lazy, horrible housekeeper.