December 7th Is Right Around The Corner, And It's Hitting Me So Hard.. =
so it kinda really sucks that he leaves in fifteen days.. i knew he had to go before we we started dating. i knew it would be hard, but i didn't know it would be this hard. i cry every day just thinking about it. i hate it. i have break downs in school. it's embarrassing, but i cant help it. i know i'm not the only person going through this, but at the same time i feel like i am the only one in this situation. he told me the other day that he wont be back home between basic and tech school.. right as he told me that i started crying.. it makes it even harder since he won't be here for Christmas.. New Y?Years.. Valentine's Day.. and my 17th birthday. i really need a lot of help and support to get me through this with out going crazy! i know that keeping busy will help me so much, and i am trying to. but no matter what i do or where i am i constantly think of him. lately all we have been doing is arguing, and it makes me really upset. and i know it makes him that way too.. but we both have a lot on our plates right now. this kinda doesn't make any sense anymore.. but i just want to be assured that i'll be okay and i have someone to talk to. so please someone give me advice or just let me know that i have someone to talk to. really, all i want is assurance ..