My friends just don't understand why I do it, how can i keep holding on? all i hear is why why why. I never respond to that question because for more that i'll try to explain they will never understand. Noone knows how it is to be a Army girlfriend/fiancee/wife. I've been going through so much with my soldier and it just tears me apart that I have nobody to talk to, someone who understands. me n my soldier have been dating for a year and a half but this past weeks we haven't talked. Every once in a while since he has exercise and a new one coming up that he might deploy to Japan for it. Im strong and keeping my head up but sometimes its not enough. I need friends. And i will always be here for you if you're in need.