Love Is But Temporary Insanity

It shocked all of my friends, all of my family, everyone I knew: some of them still haven't come to terms with my relationship with my Marine (reserve).  We met somewhere neither of us ever thought to pick somebody up: a beachfront nightclub.  I was in my senior year of high school, on track for college, university, great things.  He has a blue collar job and is more in love with his truck than a man should be.

We spent three months getting to know each other, annoying each other, but having fun.  I got my acceptance to college in Europe, and we went through an awkward time trying to figure out what we wanted.  Finally decided (well, he decided- I had known what I wanted) to try out the long-distance bit.

He failed, broke my heart on my Christmas holiday home.  Somehow, for God knows what reason, I decided to give him a second- no, a last- chance.  And he's spent the last two months trying his baby boy hardest to make up for his big mistake. 

I couldn't say exactly what it is I love about him, but I do, in a way that makes it impossible for me to stay mad at him, even when I am, impossible to desire anybody else, even though everyone thought I should be tempted.  He understands me more than anyone else possibly could, and I know what he's thinking before he does, almost.

He's one of the few, alright.  

sweetkerolajn sweetkerolajn
18-21, F
3 Responses Feb 25, 2008

I so understand; I have never been so angry & in love .... Just 2 see my phone id say his name after not calling in Weeks invokes strong emotions, anger, relief ...all in 10 seconds!!! .... I have been through Hell with this man; heart shattered but also my joy is unmeasurable .....

my love broke my heart as well. but he still has the ability to make me love him more everyday and infuriate me to the point where i want to choke him... lol but he makes me laugh instead. people who have never loved a soldier will never understand what this life is. but would we want it any other way?

Ha! I kno. So true. They drive us completely mad, but we still stay.

Wow, after reading this I feel like Im not the only one that is crazy. My airman broke my heart, and I have never been one to give second chances, but I love this boy to pieces, and I couldn't see myself with anyone else. I too gave him his last chance. Though friends, and what family does know what happened were mildly up happy with my decision, I couldn't just forget about him. He has done nothing but be so sweet, and do everything he can for me. I think it showed him that I am what he wants. Im not sure what you went through, but I know what you mean about not being about to desire anybody else.