Week 1My boyfriend has been gone only 1 week of his 9 month deployment, and this weekend has really been hard...well mostly just at night. I cried myself to sleep last night. I couldn't even sleep in my bed because it made me sad that he wasn't there, and I slept on my couch. Tonight I had plans to go out with some friends for my girlfriend's birthday, and even though I started to cry on my way out, I made it out and stayed for a couple hours. But I left early because I just wasn't feeling it. I just got so sad and started missing Sean like crazy and came home. I don't like to be sad or cry in front of others, so I just had to leave. I felt bad. This isn't me. I'm usually very independent. But I guess independence doesn't really relate to this. I'm just so sad. I miss him so much it hurts. I think tonight will be another night of tears, unfortunately.
I've heard from some of the ladies on here that the first couple weeks are the hardest......I believe it :( For me, it's not even about keeping busy to get my mind off of him. Besides working, I'm with my baby niece and nephew often and have alot of friends who are always out and about doing something. But the saddness is overwhelming right now. Hopefully this will not last....Thanks for listening! Just had to let some feelings out
LndsyAnn 26-30, F 4 Responses 0 Jul 16, 2011