After 6 Years..

My boyfriend and I, who have only been dating a few weeks, have been on and off talking for over 6 years. We met in high school while working at a catering company, I however was dating guy for almost 3 years and he was also on and off with a girl. We became very, very close. Thought I knew I shouldn't, I almost immediately started having feelings for him. He left for basic training my senior year of high school after graduating early (he is a year older than I am). Eventually the guy I was seeing and I broke up, from then on my current boyfriend and I went back and forth on and off between other relationships and his deployments. We stopped talking for almost a year and a half, then one day he added me on facebook, he was a little technologically behind the times, and we found out we lived at the same apartment complex, literally across the street from each other. The spark instantly flamed again. For months we hung out almost every day, I barely even stayed at my apartment, things were perfect. Then he stopped talking to me when he found out about his next deployment, it being his third. I was crushed. He didn't tell me until after he left why he stopped talking to me, telling me it would be too hard to leave me behind and he didn't want to hurt me in the end. Around my birthday the next winter he sent me an e-mail wishing me a happy birthday and apologizing for what he had done the previous summer. We exchanged e-mails for a couple months, started skyping and it was as if nothing ever happened. He came home this past August, we had been seeing each other ever since. Finally after 6 years of fighting for him, we are officially dating (YAY!). Now onto the reason I'm wanting to be part of a website like this... He has opened up to me about a lot of things through all of his deployments, I guess it just scares me all that he has been through. I'm terrified one day he is going to wake up and think he is not good enough for me and leave me because of that. He is the only man I've ever felt this strongly about and the last thing I want to do is lose him. I'm looking for advice on how to go about talking to him when he does open up, if that makes sense. Perspective from new military girlfriends is always appreciated.
kjf12 kjf12
22-25, F
Dec 13, 2012