One Last Hug

So I dropped him off this morning and I couldn't stop crying! I was being strong while he said his good-byes to family and friends earlier in the week, but this morning I just broke down. While we were in the car, I could tell that he was very nervous and we went to kiss but he was worried about kissing me because he thought that he was going to get sick and didnt want to get sick on me haha He is very goofy and was making some jokes to make me smile and laugh, but it was still so hard to see him walk away from me.

I had to fight with myself not to go back and run into his arms again after dropping him off. I just wanted one more hug from him. Just one more. I didn't want to let him go! I just went home into his bed and cuddled up with his blankets and pillows and tried to breathe him in. He was able to text me for a while until he had to go to processing and then the plane.

I am confident that he will do well and surpass his own potential, but at the same time, I just couldn't help but say, "I don't want you to go" as time came closer for him to leave, in which he replied, "Don't worry babe, I love you and it will be okay". I am torn because I don't want to be separated from him like this, but at the same time, I want him to be there because its what he wants to do and I know that it will make him happy even when he has to "drop and give them 20" lol I just hope that time goes by really fast!
ILoveMyGuardsman ILoveMyGuardsman
18-21, F
2 Responses Jan 7, 2013

I feel your pain :/ I went through the same thing yesterday, we stood there, and he held me and told me everything would be just fine, that he'd still love me and come back to me, I couldn't help but to just bury my face in his chest to hide my tears, but I had to let go, we kissed goodbye and walked away. And as soon as we turn we both cry, he tried to hide it, I know he did. I can say, that it'll be tough not hearing from him as much, but he's doing something he loves, and I have to support him a 100%
I'll miss my solider .

yeah, i know how youre feeling. its just such a sucky thing! i dont think it would be as bad if i was able to get a text or call everyday or something, but i understand why they arent allowed to...and i just have to keep reminding myself that he is happy doing this and this will make his future as well as his future with me better because he will be happy and have something to do with his life!

It is hard...but be strong and keep busy and he'll be in your arms again before ya know it;)