Trying.He's been so stressed out lately. beyond his limits. meaning whenever he talks to me he's mean and annoyed. I'm trying really hard to get used to this new person he's becoming. I know how hard he's working and how stressed out he is. but we've been doing nothing but bickering because he's just so mean.
last night he even said he called me because i wanted to talk, not because he did. that really hurt my feelings. after a long day he's the only one i want to talk to, but i guess it doesnt go both ways.
when he got his orders last week he didnt even tell me right away. im used to getting a phone call of him being so excited and telling me what his next step is during his lunch break or something when he finds out. but this time he waited until he was saying goodnight then was like "oh yeah by the way i got my orders today". and i had to wait until the next day to talk about them because he didnt want to pull his papers out.
I am trying so hard to be there for him. I try and send him encouraging text messages and tell him i hope he's doing well and that he's having a good day. I even made up a huge package and sent it to him because i knew he needed something more to cheer him up.
last night was just so discouraging. i hate arguing, but especially with him. when he's all quiet and not even responding to me on the phone, it makes me feel unimportant. i call him to have a conversation, not to talk to myself. as i keep saying, i know how hard he is working and i understand that he is busy. i am nothing but understanding with him. but it's hard. when all we have is the way we speak to each other and our communication, that isn't how we should act with each other.
i just dont know what to do. i'm trying to let it go and just say "it's not me, he's tired". but that is so hard when he has changed so much. i used to get cute texts throughout the day and when he went out on weekends and wished i was there... random phone calls during the day just to say he missed me... selfies of himself just making a face at me to brighten my day. i dont know just so many little things. and i still do those for him, but nothing in return.
im trying really hard to stay strong for him, and to not complain. but he's just not himself lately, and i miss my boyfriend. i try my hardest to show him how much i appreciate him all the time, every day. and i just want the same thing back.
im sorry if it sounds like i'm complaining. i just dont know what to do. i hate arguing with him. im trying so hard here to be there for him, but when he's quiet and shuts me out, there's not much i can do anymore.
clacey 18-21, F 5 Responses 0 Nov 26, 2013