I saw this online and thought I would try it out in hopes that I will connect with someone going through the same experience as myself. I feel like no one around me would understand the sadness I am going through. Even if no one sees this, it feels good to just write it down. I'm one to hold in my emotion and put on a happy face, but lately my unhappiness is starting to show. My boyfriend is my number one best friend, I tell him everything, except during this whole process of him deploying, I feel like I should keep most of my feelings to myself. I don't want to tell him I cry almost every night because I miss him so damn much. I'll be visiting him in a month during his leave before he officially deploys over seas for 9 months. When I see him it will be two months since I've been able to see him. If I'm having such a hard time right now, I don't want to even imagine what that 9 months will feel like. Our 2 years is coming up and we will once again be spending it apart, it sucks but I know it's apart of being with a Military man. He is worth every second. I could to ramble on and on about everything I'm thinking about but I'll stop for now.
morgieporgie morgieporgie
22-25, F
2 Responses Aug 17, 2014

I just hit 9 months of my boyfriend being deployed. He comes home next month sometime(yay!). So i can tell you from experience that yes, you are going to miss him and yes it will be hard. But you will get stronger and if you are open with him and supportive, so will your relationship. You can do this. There will be times when you think you can't, but you can. Just take it a day at a time.

I know a lot of girls choose not to vent to their significant others about how much they are struggling, and to a point, I will agree that you can't complain constantly. They will feel guilty and helpless that there is nothing more they can do. But keeping your feelings bottled up can lead to resentment towards him when he gets home and I would imagine it will make deployment even more difficult. It's just my opinion, but for me, I tried my best to be strong and not complain too much to him. However, I did explain to him how I was feeling if I was having a particularly hard time. Just be sure to not place blame on him. Emphasize the fact that you know it is not his fault, and that you are both in it together and sharing your experiences with each other (good and bad) helps you feel closer to him.

Again, just my opinion :) I don't think I would have survived it if I hadn't been able to talk about how I was feeling with him, since in my eyes he was the only one who had any kind of understanding in the situation.

Good luck, you're going to do better than you think. Feel free to message me if you ever want to talk!

Thank you so much! It makes me feel good reading responses or other people's stories. I'm already feeling a little bit better knowing I have people on here who I can turn to! Which I know for sure I will! Also I'm excited for you that your man comes home next month! That's so awesome! :)

I have found this website to he really helpful! Everyone is really helpful and supportive! And we all know exactly what you are going through! It's definitely hard but it's important to stay positive! Think about how amazing the next time you see him will be! Feel free to message me for support :)

Thank you so much, I really appreciate it! :)