I went out with some friends tonight and I can't help but feel so damn lonely right now. Maybe it's because I'm drunk idk but I am tired of this feeling. This feeling of not wanting to be helpless, this feeling of missing him, this feeling of reminding myself that I have to be strong, this feeling of holding it down with no1 to turn to. I miss my boyfriend and I've been holding it in for way too long. I've been pretending all this time that I'm ok when God knows that even before he left that I was broken. No1 can ever make me feel otherwise about him, we've been through too much. I'm not looking for anything with anyone else & though I do keep the company of male friends, no1 strikes me the way that he does. I love him with all that I have and I'm fine with being a MILSO, if that's what it takes then so be it.

**** I gta stop drinking.
VousEtesBelleCM VousEtesBelleCM
22-25, F
Aug 24, 2014