When I was about to be concieved, my mother had a tumor growing in her uterus. The doctor had given up hope and gave my father the damning decision, either save mother or child. My father was in a dilemma and did not know what to do. He told the doctor to do what they could. Ultimately the doctor was able to save both. I still wonder how I escaped death. I always wonder why God has kept me alive, especially after my wife has died at a young age in her mid 30s and my father has died too. What special plan is in place that I was allowed to live? I question that every time I am depressed and get no answer.