I Think Misanthrope Is The Reason For My Misery

How can you have this and live normally?
 
This is my question. I’m convinced I have this real bad, I’m only 21 and I’m living like I’m brain dead and I can’t do it anymore; the life has just been sucked out of me. How do you maintain your will to live when all you see is blind idiots trapped in their shallow dreams? I cannot see the point in living if I don’t feel part of mankind. I’ve locked myself away to the extreme, I can’t bear to look at them and I don’t know how I’m going to manage co-existing with them. Everyone else manages to have simple minded fun but I never have been able to – It all looks so ugly to me.
 
I just want to find the easiest possible way through. I’ve realised that I’m never going to be happy and I’m always going to want to die but I don’t want to hurt my family. I just want to crawl into a ditch with some other misanthropes (hopeless and weak like me) and try and lean on them so I don’t have to crawl on the floor all day. Sadly I don’t think that’s likely at all, but it’s my only hope to have some feeling of safety and relief
 
I’m hoping this sounded like a case of genuine misanthropy because I can’t see what else this could be.
 
Lifehatred Lifehatred
26-30, M
5 Responses Jul 25, 2010

"We are not human beings having a spiritual experience. We are spiritual beings having a human experience." Teilhard Chardin

This human experience we're having -- is over-rated. Just do you. I do me -- because people for the most part SUCK. If they are not in touch with their spiritual selves -- I pass, because I am a highly sensitive person and being disappointed in flesh is a waste of my energy and time... I can't have that. If I am lucky, I will only be on this planet for 100 years.
So, I guess that makes me a misanthrope. I am so glad I found people of my ilk!

Cheers misanthropes!

The feelings you're feeling are normal for "our" kind. You should never be contempt with their explenation of things. As another misantropic person I know that our strength is derived from our belief that humanity has no value what so ever. Certain people, or humans, may have influenced us in different ways.. but the basic is the same!! Humanity will NEVER survive as we are destroying ourselves...

feel the same way, except i force myself to co-exist, pushed by the social pressure that my parents inflict on me and i want you ti know that us closet misanthropes (not really sure if thats a word) understand and that don't judge all mankind by the many shallow people. There are deep people out there and hopefully youll find them. i wish you luck

Your parents don't understand or ackwnowlege that other people has other views of the world and creation... they will never accepy you or me :(

feel the same way, except i force myself to co-exist, pushed by the social pressure that my parents inflict on me and i want you ti know that us closet misanthropes (not really sure if thats a word) understand and that don't judge all mankind by the many shallow people. There are deep people out there and hopefully youll find them. i wish you luck

I so understand what you are going through´.... however, you always led us to belive there could be something better! :)

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if I find an answer I'll let you know