Nowhere To Go From Here

I find that I am incredibly apathetic and narcissistic in addition to misanthropic. I feel very strongly about how much the human race disgusts me, however I don't feel much about many other things. I feel like I'm a much better person in every way than the people around me. I'm aware of it, but I don't really know how or care to change it. 

I make concious decisions to move away from friends that begin to irritate me or if I tire of them. I have always been rather cynical, but I haven't always felt this way about people. Now, I feel like I'm smarter, more logical, and better looking than most other people. I don't feel like I hate everyone because they aren't good enough to be my friends, though. Honestly. I just hate being around more than my specific handful of people because they seem unintelligent to me.

I have seen the newest comedies and I absolutely detest them. They make me feel like the collective human intelligence is dropping at an alarming rate. What bothers me more is how incredibly popular they are. I have spoken to my brother about this and he seems to be of the same mindset I am.

At the same time, I have been with my same boyfriend for 3 and a half years now. I love him to death but I see my least favorite things about humanity reflected in him. Which sometimes comes up with the few friends I have left. I feel such strong hatred for most aspects of humanity these days, it's hard to turn on the TV or leave the house at all without becoming aggrivated.

Eudorra Eudorra
18-21, F
2 Responses Feb 19, 2010

Amen to that! It's sad to think that it's perfectly acceptable in our society for people to act like complete fools and get away with it. Or worse, to get rich by acting like a jackass. No wonder why most intelligent people are disgusted with society. This is the same society who glorifies primiscuous women and men the who ob<x>jectify these women.

Amen to the comedies remark. I was forced to sit through "40 Year Old Virgin" recently. I think those movies really say a lot about how dumb our society is. Does anyone else care that pretty much all men are portrayed as idiots who need their wives to pretty much wipe their ***** for them? <br />
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I also easily tire of friends. I used to think it was a character flaw, but I'm beginning to suspect most people are just boring idiots.