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I Am a Mother of a Murdered Son

Losing Judd

By: kslabtechchick
Written on August 7th, 2008
Age: 56-60
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81 responses
  • boby6

    im very sorry for your loss. its always horrible when the best people always get the worst outcomes for no reasons and no one ever understands why.

    Oct 20, 2009
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  • bitsyboo

    Your precious Judd had such a great gift in life - your deep love for him and the love of so many in the community. For some reason it was his time to make his transition, and we can chooose to honor that because now he is in great peace. If you can embrace this higher perspective, and know that he lives, his spirit is around you, and your mutual love lives on, I hope you find peace also.

    Oct 24, 2009
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  • SynesthesiaSoup

    I read your story and sympathise with you.



    Hope your family recovers from the loss.

    Dec 14, 2009
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  • divyansh123

    I read your story as the tears flowed from my eyes freely. Your son was a good man, and I hope that he is able to be at peace. Though you say you are afraid and stopped by fear and loss, I believe your story shows you have great strength, the memory of your son lives on strong in you.

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    Angioplasty

    Dec 14, 2009
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  • luvonritzie

    Its a year letter since you initially posted... I am sorry for your loss... have you found your faith again... because for a man like Judd to have existed in the first place and touched my life without having even known him is a sign that God exists... I am not the preachy type I just hate that not only did your son get taken from you and all he knew prematurely, but they took your faith too...

    Apr 2, 2010
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  • softkitti

    I am so sorry for your loss . Your Judd sounds like a wonderful man . I want to say something , but know that there isnt anything I can possibly say to make a real difference .... you have touched me deeply , you and your family will be in my prayers

    Apr 14, 2010
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  • videodemon

    Every now and then I come back to this amazing story. You're in our hearts and minds.

    Sep 14, 2010
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  • kslabtechchick

    I would like to send everyone my heartfelt thanks for their comments and thoughts on my 'Losing Judd' experience. Also, I want to update, to some extent ,our lives since this happened.

    Nicki has finally found someone, not to replace Judd in her life, but to make a new life with. They have a sweet daughter.

    While I don't really believe our faith can be so easily renewed, my other children and I are managing to find life with loves of our own. I have a new grandson, the son of my youngest daughter. I have moved south and found love.

    Judd will always be there in our hearts, the one we think of constantly. Wishing just to share some time with him again.

    Sep 18, 2010
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  • StarOrchid

    The cowardliness and blindness of some people is astounding. I think you worded this very well. I'm sorry about your loss.

    Sep 20, 2010
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  • slimcity

    Judd is an Angel...I promise one day you'll understand...Jah bless.

    Sep 26, 2010
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  • Shellfinder

    I am so sorry for your loss. Its the hardest thing losing a beloved son. Its equally hard to understand it, comprehend and find any peace within you. Someone who didn't care about human life took his for nothing but money. There is no excuses for that and there will be hell to pay for him. Such a cowardess thing to do, locking him in a freezer.

    The world is full of evil down here, but it also is full of good...hang on to that thought every day. See it in every possible place. I hope soon, your heart will heal. It will be good for your son. Send him your love, and one day you will meet again. For sure.

    Oct 16, 2010
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  • yeahumno

    My deepest sympathy for your loss it is horrible that there are idiot out there like this guy. It seems like good people always get tooken that bring something valid to the world while others that do such senseless things live amongst us I will be praying for you and you family.

    Dec 30, 2010
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  • amagiclady

    We lost a daughter at age 22. All I can say is that I am so happy that you had this wonderful child in your life for 24 years. There are no words, I know. You are not alone.

    Jan 29, 2011
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  • 19rocky71

    Sorry for your loss but the loss to the community also.

    May 28, 2011
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  • craazzeecalamity

    I cannot imagine your pain.

    Have you ever heard of the book Conversations with the Other Side by Sylvia Browne?

    You might find some comfort there.

    Your family is in my thoughts,

    in love and light.

    Oct 18, 2011
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  • Pebbles1982

    I am very sorry for your loss, and hope you'll accept my condolences. (and a hug) I pray your pain lessens daily, and hope you'll find peace. Bless you!

    Jan 9, 2012
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  • wollyisaac

    I am sorry about your loss. I believe in Karma so that criminal will get his not just jail.

    I will pray for you. Sorry about your faith as well. I believe that your son has peace and joy. He lives stong in your heart. No matter what you believe now, you and your loved ones will be reunited with him in the afterlife. GOD BLESS YOU!!!! }i{ XOXOX

    Apr 20, 2012
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  • aristotle88

    Karma only works to those with conscience's , and its not due to any higher power, its due to that person knowing they did wrong and subconsciously causing bad to happen to them as a type of penance. Of course there is no god of any written about variety, this is just a social control tool. In regards to your son, it is indeed a wretched thing perpetrated by a reptilian swine of a person. Revenge is a dish best served cold and there is nothing better to do than gain it. Of course it must not consume you as then the swine has won again. If it were me i would do all i can to make his life hell, but i wouldnt oppose release, id want him out so that i could tear him limb by limb, slowly. Live strong and do well, that is the best you can do for your sons memory and possibly adopt some kid who needs a loving family, around 5 or younger. Peace, respect and revenge to you , from my heart. Arisotle88

    Sep 9, 2012
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  • godgirl3

    Hello. My name is Jessica Humbles and I am a mother of 3 boys. I read your story twice, both times with tears in my eyes. I dont know what to say but that God writes our life we just have to enjoyde even when something unthinkable happens. Your son was an angel and he had to take his place. You are a HERO in my eyes. I am in the process of writing a book about Mother's who lost there Son's due to the violence in New Orleans. I never written a book before but this book is for you and only Mother's who lost there son's. Just know you are not forgotton, lost, nor not thought about. I'm in the beganing stage of my book but it is in the making. Thank you for sharing your story, We LOVE YOU & may GOD continue to BLESS YOU!!! From my heart to your's.

    Sep 17, 2012
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    • kslabtechchick

      Thank you so much for your post. Your words give me strength and I am grateful to realize there are people like you out there. Good luck with your book, I know you will do well.

      Sep 18, 2012
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  • cali4niadreamer

    Hello. I just wanted to say to you that I am so sorry for your loss. As a mother of 3 boys myself I just can't imagine what you must be going through. I have a son in the Army and i worry every single day that something could happen to him. Please stay strong and know that your son is always with you.

    Sep 28, 2012
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