My Son Was Killed on January 4, 2010

I welcomed into my heart and soul my beloved son Jovauni on September 25, 1992. We spent an incredible amount of joyous and special moments together that are embedded deep within the inner most being of who I am because he was and will always be my heart and soul as is my other son. He was who I am today and I thank God that he gave me the opportunity to be blessed with such a beautiful child both in and out.

Jovauni was such a smart young man....yeah like his momma!!! He had the most beautiful smile and the funniest laugh....again just like his momma. Because my son Joe was such a kind-hearted young man and so trusting of others...he was lured into the wrong path. Although my son may have been surrounded by darkness during this time in his life, he continued to be the light in everyone's life that he knew and associated with. I had the opportunity to speak with many of his high school friends who shared many precious moments with my son and I was told over and over how good of a person and friend he was to so many people.

I wondered all last year what my son was going through and what exactly drove him into this path and as many countless times I would have my talks with Joe; he carried this burden with him to the grave. I hope and pray that no mother would ever have to endure going through such an experience with their child because as much as I  tried to help him, guide and direct him, Joe was going to do what he was going to do. I accept that and I hate it but that’s just how it was going to be.

I thank God that my son no longer has to carry this burden and is no longer troubled and he is safe from the evil that lurked him. That gives me comfort! I know where my son is at because he did right by himself and gave his life to the Lord once again on Sunday. That is why I believe that it was his time to go. The Lord listened to his cries to remove him from this lifestyle and he did. My son is in a better place. He is home with his Heavenly Father who held my son from the moment he was conceived to the moment he opened his arms to receive my son in the kingdom of Heaven.

My heart aches, I feel empty without him but I must continue to strive for my family...my lil son Anthony, my husband Anthony and the rest of my family. I also will strive for our youth. No mother should have to bury their child due to crime and violence. Our children deserve to live their lives free of violence and fear. I vow that Joe's death was not in vain and in his name we will make a difference in young people's lives!!!

This is a message from Jovauni to us all:

 

                 

AFTERGLOW
I'd like the memory of me to be a happy one.
I'd like to leave an afterglow of smiles when life is done.
I'd like to leave an echo whispering softly down the ways.
Of happy times and laughing times and bright and sunny days.
I'd like the tears of those who grieve, to dry before the sun.
Of happy memories that I leave when life is done.

GeeLo1220 GeeLo1220
36-40, F
16 Responses Mar 1, 2010

Wow.

Thank you much Shela. May God bless you and yours and provide you with peace!

My Heart goes out to you, Keep the strength our Lord Jesus has given, I'm another Mother Lost my son he was 21yrs. old he would've been 24yrs old 11/4, i miss him but I believe God needed him home, I still don't know who may be responsible for killing him, but i can rest assure Our Father in Heaven Know, and when I'm strong enough to handled it, he will reveal if. I will keep praying for all the youth & family that this will stop we shouldn't have to buried them so young, you son Joe was a very handsome young man, may God keep you and yours Queen<br />
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Blessing & Love<br />
Shela- Nashville, Tn

My Heart goes out to you, Keep the strength our Lord Jesus has given, I'm another Mother Lost my son he was 21yrs. old he would've been 24yrs old 11/4, i miss him but I believe God needed him home, I still don't know who may be responsible for killing him, but i can rest assure Our Father in Heaven Know, and when I'm strong enough to handled it, he will reveal if. I will keep praying for all the youth & family that this will stop we shouldn't have to buried them so young, you son Joe was a very handsome young man, may God keep you and yours Queen<br />
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Blessing & Love<br />
Shela- Nashville, Tn

I am sorry you have lost your son. You are a lady whose strength shines through your writing. You are an inspiration. Your strength will help others.

I almost lost my son 5 years ago, I t still makes me ill and woozy when I recall the Dr's words..."If there is anyone you want to see him, you should call them, If he makes it through tonight...maybe..My son is in that dark place now, as so many of our young people are...You are brave and have so much heart...you are doing your boy proud..He is just upstairs...One Love...

My heart aches too...this pain will never go away and i miss my son more than words could ever say. I have my good days and my bad days but I have to live and hold on to his memory and thats how I keep him with me! I am sorry for your loss! I hope you could find peace in your heat one day!

My heart goes out to you and I wish I could feel the way you do <br />
but I don't my heart ache so bad for my daughter Erica

wow.... I am sorry to hear of your loss

My heart truly goes out to you!, I am so, so sorry for your loss, :-( I can never,ever imagine what you are going through! my prayers are with you and your's, stay strong hon! at least he is in a better place free from pain and hatred! My heart is breaking reading this i am so sorry!!

Thanks again to all for your kind words.

May the Holy Spirit surround you and comfort you. Take a deep breath in and feel his presense. Much love to you

Thank you all for your kind words.

im sorry for your loss queen my prayers are with you and your son. stay srong

I agree with Charlie...what a strong soul you are! Losing my son, Judd was hard enough, I can't imagine losing him in this way.

Thank you Charlie. Yes he is!