How I Lost My Son

I lost my sweet son on Feb. 24, 2005.  The day that broke my heart forever.  He suffered from schizophrenia and had gone off his medications.  He found out his girl was sleeping with his best friend and it was too much for him to handle.  So he shot himself and now my world is without a sweet kind man and his child has lost her daddy.  There is not a day that goes by that I don't feel this loss deeply.
sadeyes sadeyes
46-50, F
1 Response Jul 12, 2007

There are no words to say that could make you feel any better because its just never going to happen. All I can offer you is support and wish you happiness out of the devastating events you have undergone in your life. You obviously have your grandaughter as a reminder of your son and I hope she gives you some hope to cling on to. He is still in your life as long as your grandaughter is. I have experience with schizophrenia although it is not myself. My long term girlfriend had it and the final days of our relationship was very hard . I could hold on no longer as she pushed me out to be with god and a certain pop star, even though she had never met either one of them. She was in agony for a long time ,with schizophrenia playing its awful part in her life and I can only thank god that even though we are apart, He never took her away from me. You have schizophrenia,You lost your son and that makes my problems and experiences seem so insignificant. You are obviously a wonderful person and in reality,There is a reason for everything. I know its cliche and you may find no comfort in these words but I hope you find some comfort in these words I am about to say. Although you have probably experienced peoples lack of understanding and bl<x>inkered outlook on life and of schizophrenia you will find that under no circumstances do they represent the main body of humanity on this planet and I for one care that you suffer as do a lot of people out there. You are not alone. You can always talk if you are lonely. Yes! I know that there are a lot of selfish people out there and in here as well but you will find the right ones if you open up as you have done. Talking is not the medicine that will heal but it is a part of the process to self healing and you are always welcome to talk to me for one. <br />
Many happy days<br />
Gordy