Abigail And Eleanor And My 3 Miscarriage's

hi my name is Stacey i want to tell everybody about my angels

i was 16 years old when i lost my first daughter Abigail jean white she was born on 16th may 2004 she was born at 23 weeks premature and lived for 16 hours before we had the hardest decision to turn her life support of, she was born at Barnsley Hospital where she was for a while before she got transferred to st jimmy's hospital in Leeds, where her both lungs pop and she started getting blood clots and bleeding on her brain and that's where she died in mine and her daddy's arms. she would b 7 this year in may the day after her daddy's birthday. after we lost Abigail i just wanted to fill in the hole of losing a child that i wanted another one so badly, so wen i did get pregnant again it was't ment to be yet again after that miscarriage i had another 2 within 5 months of losing Abigail and when i finally got pregnant again in September 2005 i was pregnant with Eleanor Louise White i was 17 years old, i carried Eleanor all the way up to 26 weeks on 6Th march on mother's day when i lost Eleanor she was born still born i was devastated i lost 5 children all under a year. i don't knw how i coped in the first couple of months i just went numb and wen i lost eleanor i just went over bored, i started self harming and i didn't want to live anymore. i blamed myself for telling my children dwn