I Am a Mother
I am located in Cleveland, Oh and it seems everywhere I turn things have gotten worse. This city use to be full of Life and promise. Looking around now you see abandon house, buildings crumbling, and more homeless people on the streets. I was driving this morning and noticed a man sleeping on newspaper on the sidewalk on Lakeside Avenue downtown. I thought to myself I'm not too far that myself. I have a half a tank of gas, nine dollars in my bank account and an empty house. Not much to look forward to. Looking for a job is like trying to find a needle in a hay stack. I just don't know where to turn anymore. Family should be there when you need them or so I thought, but when it comes down to it you can only rely on yourself to get the things that you need.
I went to school thinking that this would would help my chances of finding employment but that's not the case. I've been steadily looking putting in my resume everywhere and praying I get a call soon. I'm not sure but I wonder if god can hear my cries with so many others in need. This is worst I've seen it in years. I keep going thinking things have got to get better soon.
Today I decided to start writing just to get it all off my chest and maybe some advice. I hope that someone can see that can tell me where to turn. I have gone to welfare and applied for food stamps and medical. I guess that's all I can get because I asked about cash assistance and the lady told me, I would only receive $165.00 per month for a family of 4 and in order to receive that I would have to attend 30 hour a week classes. I told her that's not worth it. She told me, " Consider opening up your own business." I have no money to do that. I don't even have any money to feed my kids so how would I ever get the money to open up my own business. This just didn't make any since to me. I do qualify for food and medical benefits, which is a plus, I just don't know when I will I start receiving them. What to do now? I guess I just sit and wait to see if things start to pan out.
I sit and think all the time about my next move. I put in more applications and resumes hoping that soon something comes my way. I never saw myself in such a bad place. I've worked most of my life and I'm a good person. Why do I need to suffer? Where did I go wrong? All these question keep me from sleeping. My kids aren't even staying with me at this time because I cant feed them my oldest is with my mother and my youngest is with his dad. At least they are OK. I'm not worried about me too much but I don't want to keep borrowing money from my mom to get gas and food. I've only been eating once a day so I can make that money stretch as far as it will go.
Bills will be due at the beginning of the month and I'm not even sure how I will ever get the money to pay them.What happened to strong person I use to be? Where did I go? How can even begin to explain to my kids why I am so down? This keeps eating at me. Will it ever end? Is everyone suffering as much? I know there are others out there with less. I guess I should be thankful for little that I have. I still can't understand why people turn their backs when you need them the most. I guess that I cant understand because I've always tried to help people when I can. I guess everyone's different.
I went to school thinking that this would would help my chances of finding employment but that's not the case. I've been steadily looking putting in my resume everywhere and praying I get a call soon. I'm not sure but I wonder if god can hear my cries with so many others in need. This is worst I've seen it in years. I keep going thinking things have got to get better soon.
Today I decided to start writing just to get it all off my chest and maybe some advice. I hope that someone can see that can tell me where to turn. I have gone to welfare and applied for food stamps and medical. I guess that's all I can get because I asked about cash assistance and the lady told me, I would only receive $165.00 per month for a family of 4 and in order to receive that I would have to attend 30 hour a week classes. I told her that's not worth it. She told me, " Consider opening up your own business." I have no money to do that. I don't even have any money to feed my kids so how would I ever get the money to open up my own business. This just didn't make any since to me. I do qualify for food and medical benefits, which is a plus, I just don't know when I will I start receiving them. What to do now? I guess I just sit and wait to see if things start to pan out.
I sit and think all the time about my next move. I put in more applications and resumes hoping that soon something comes my way. I never saw myself in such a bad place. I've worked most of my life and I'm a good person. Why do I need to suffer? Where did I go wrong? All these question keep me from sleeping. My kids aren't even staying with me at this time because I cant feed them my oldest is with my mother and my youngest is with his dad. At least they are OK. I'm not worried about me too much but I don't want to keep borrowing money from my mom to get gas and food. I've only been eating once a day so I can make that money stretch as far as it will go.
Bills will be due at the beginning of the month and I'm not even sure how I will ever get the money to pay them.What happened to strong person I use to be? Where did I go? How can even begin to explain to my kids why I am so down? This keeps eating at me. Will it ever end? Is everyone suffering as much? I know there are others out there with less. I guess I should be thankful for little that I have. I still can't understand why people turn their backs when you need them the most. I guess that I cant understand because I've always tried to help people when I can. I guess everyone's different.
By:
Missy82783
Age:
26-30
,
Female
