Hurting My Pride--a Good Thing!I think I am here because I want to stop trying to keep the image of perfection that I've treasured for so long. I have held dearly the idea of how "special" and omnipotent I am. But all of the evidence shows just how human, how vulnerable, and how much I need other people that reality truly is.
Everyone simply needs a Savior, Jesus. I've told myself over and over that if I just had the job, the body, the attractive relationship, the knowledge, then I would be just fine and I wouldn't need anything from anyone.
Jesus said it. Anyone who tries to save their life (control and maintain the treasured view of their self) will lose it. But anyone who loses their life (embraces vulnerability, gives to those in need, shows kindness and compassion and a willingness to give away) for my sake will find it. Maybe it's just sin and the great grasping for control that's holding us all back. If we took risks, took chances, even if we might fall and lose or break our pride, then maybe we would find it's better to be a nobody who gave than a somebody who stored up for himself.
I hate this narcissism in myself. I hate it with all my passion. I will overcome it. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.