To All The Girls Whose Men Are In Boot
I want to show you why you can get through this. Why it is worth it. Just based on the reassurance to all the insecurities I had, which Mathew was able to tell me once he was in A School and had some time to loosen up and start really talking.
I know you're hurting right now. Three months ago I was in the same place. It hurts so much to be on one side and not know what's going on on the other.
You send letter after letter and some days feel like you're talking to dead air
[Mathew now tells me that those letters got him through every day, that it was the only thing that reminded him that there was a kind voice somewhere in the world for him]
You send pictures, but feel silly for doing so
[Mathew says those pictures kept him alive, that he'd tuck them under his pillow, in his pocket, in his books, to look at every day]
You spray your perfume on the letter, then fear that your man will get teased or think it's cheesy
[He says the first time he smelled it, he couldn't stop and passed it around for his buddies to smell]
You worry...what if he doesn't even care for me anymore
[He says he daydreamed about me, heard my voice in his head, saw my smile, and it was his only joy]
I am not bragging or showing off, because I am not the only case like this. This is pretty close to normal with everyone, am I right, girls of A School Sailors?
I tell you these things to comfort and reassure you. You will have doubts. That is normal. It will hurt. That can't be helped. But just keep reminding yourself...no matter how much you doubt, he DOES love you, and probably more now than he ever has before. He can't wait to see you and year your voice again. He probably hasn't gotten a hug since the last one you gave him, and he can't wait to get one from you again. HE LOVES YOU, and he misses you more than you miss him, if you can imagine that to be possible!
Stay strong. Stick through. Because when you make it through and finally see him again...you'll have never known a greater joy in your life, and the former heartache won't even matter anymore.
You can do this, because this is a battle worth fighting.