Tough Week

I didn't realize how good I had it until this week came.

You see before this week my boyfriend was staying in a hotel. And as of this week he officially moved on ship.

The hotel had WiFi... ship doesn't. I Skyped with him every morning and night. (It was hard waking up between 4-6 am but I did it)
The hotel he could be out at all hours of the night... ship taps is played at 10pm and he has to be in bed.
The hotel he could text and call all the time.... the ship only when he's able to make it off or find a place with signal.

I HAD IT GOOD.

He just called and it was the first time in days that I have heard his voice. And I cried after we hung up. I mean he said I'll call you as soon as I am done and I get liberty tonight. So I should be happy and I am happy. I just didn't realize how different it was to hear I love you (several of them) over the phone than it was pulling up an old voicemail to hear it. And so I've been sitting on my couch crying like a little baby, waiting for him to call back.

And to boot he hasn't gotten any of the letters I have sent this week. He's checking with his CO to see if the address he gave me was correct. But bright side is I haven't gotten them back.

I am still afraid to email his ship's email address. That whole if you write something wrong everyone will hear it thing has me scared.

Meanwhile I am counting down the days until I leave to see him. I've started gathering stuff to bring to him. I'm trying to keep myself busy so I don't have to think. And I realize it's now become about counting and planning.

The one thing that gets me though is when he says "ya know babe it'll be okay." Because I know deep in my heart it will be, even though it doesn't feel like it.
yourangelawaits yourangelawaits
31-35, F
2 Responses Aug 7, 2010

Thanks you guys!<br />
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I am a strong person and have really good coping skills. Been told that several times in my life time. <br />
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I just didn't realize how good I had it until it was gone. But isn't that life. You don't realize what you have until it's gone. <br />
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He just called not that long ago... he's going to go bowling with friends. I'm glad he's having fun but man wish I could go.... I know you're all in my boat.

Stay strong for the both of you! In the end, everything will work itself out. :)