Some Days Just Seem Impossible.You know those days where you miss your man but you also start to wonder if they miss you too? Where a little something is off so you fixate on it and convince yourself its some huge deal. The days when you know you're pmsing but you can't help but to feel alone and abandoned because you don't get to talk to your sailor or if you do, the conversation seems to be missing that little bit of something that lifts you up.
I'm having one of those days. Zack has been in FMTB (field medical training battalion for navy hospital corpsmen) for only about two weeks now and it's starting to wear me down. We met after he had finished bootcamp so I never had to experience it but he says this training is really a lot like bootcamp again and judging by the amount we can communicate, I'd say it's pretty similar. We can text occasionally, but with a five hour time difference and his long hours, it's usually only late at night for me. He doesn't respond to emails or facebook messages.
Some days I just get worn out, ya know the feeling? The feeling like I spend so much time and energy being perky and happy for him the few minutes I hear from him because I know he needs my support, but some days I wonder who's supporting me cause it feels like I'm all alone. That's why I love this site so much, you girls support me so that I can support him. So on days like today, days when i'm particularly upset or feeling weak, I can come here and read your stories and share mine and feel like I'm not so alone.