Written on August 30th, 2011
Anyone who had a loved one in any branch of the military knows this ride all too well, and sadly for us, it isn't a ride we can get off easily. Just when you have one foot out of the rollercoaster car, the ride takes off again. I am (of course) no exception to this wonderfully exhausting ride. Civillians who don't have a loved one gone like this honestly will never comprehend the multitude of emotions that plauge us every second of every day. I for one have never felt so bi-polar in my entire life. It's like you wake up in the morning ready to tackle the world and then by noon, the only thing you can think of is how much you miss who is missing at the time. From there, some form of minor to major depression takes ahold of the controls and the ride becomes a little more unstable. For anyone who can sympathize (which that would be a good majority if not all of the women on here), it is honestly up to us to hold each other up. No one else knows how we feel better than each other. Why? Because we have or are all there right now. As most know (or anyone who keeps up with my posts), my boyfriend of nearly eight months, Jeffrey, was claimed by RTC last week (August 22nd to be exact). Since then, I have been more or less a mess of emotional "vomit". I can be as chipper as a little girl in a candy store one moment, and the next I am so deep in a hole that it almost feels impossible to get out of. This brings me back to being there for each other. As I have said before, we are more than just girlfriends with men in the navy. We are bonded by that one very crucial simillarity that makes us fellow riders of the E.R. and more than that, we are sisters. In a way, the Navy is one big family all moving towards a common goal, and we are part of the most important missions the navy can deal out. We are the support system to the men and women out there doing what they have to in order to keep us safe. BUT! In order to keep US safe, it is our job to keep THEM sane. We should never allow doubts cross our minds and let that get in the way of our relationships. Without us, there wouldn't be the very critical support that allows our men to keep going and stay grounded--so to speak. Remember ladies. We are stonger than most because when our men told us what they wanted to do with thier future and asked the important question "will you stay?" we said "yes". Keep each your spirits up. Keep your man's spirit up. And even more so, keep your fellow sisters' spirits up. We are all in this together. This is more than just a support group. This is a very large extended family.