Feeling Lost.

My boyfriend of 7 months just left for basic a few days ago. It was such a hard thing for me to do, give him up. I didn't know if I could ever do such a thing. I also didn't think i had the strength to get through something like this. It's such a scary experience. I didn't know how to go about dealing with something like so.
Lucky for me though I got to go to des Moines with his mother and see him get sworn in and then go to the airport and talk with him for about a half an hour.
Yesterday, I had to move all his stuff into my apartment which was so hard for me to do. Not seeing his car in the driveway is when it finally hit me that he wasn't coming home. Then of course walking into the apartment and seeing all the stuff we had there, pictures, letters, cute litte things that he and I shared just tore me up. I couldn't stop bawling. I thought I was going to end up hyperventaling.
Luckily my best friend could calm me down and just talk me through it.
Part of me feels lost, broken, dead. I made my boyfriend my world. We spent the last 7 months of our relationship getting to know everything about one another and now he's gone. It's hard to deal with this.
Now those things that I have like pictures, letters and the other cute things are what get me by everyday. They are what motivates me to do anything and be happy cause I'm so blessed to have such a wonderful boyfriend.
I'd just love to talk to some other girls, see how they are dealing with this. Get advice, make friends with other navy girlfriends and just help people out.
Asailorhasmyheart93 Asailorhasmyheart93
18-21, F
3 Responses Aug 10, 2012

I feel the same way. My fiance just left yesterday for boot camp, we've been together for 2 years next month. He's missing our anniversary, and he missed last year's too for different reasons. He's also missing my 18th birthday. I just can't wait to get the date of his graduation so I can buy my plane ticket and be that much closer to being in his arms again!

It really does get a little bit easier.. my salior has been gone for about 3 weeks now. and when i got my first letter it made me feel soooo much better, just try to stay positive.. especially when you write him.. he wants and needs your support. also, finding people to talk to about it makes you feel a whole heck of a lot better... if you ever need to message me or anything, i'm here for you :) stay strong, you and your salior are in my prayers!

It gets easier you will start getting letters and then you will have something to look forward to. Start writting him letters now it will make you feel so much better it will make you feel close to him. Its gonna be ok just be strong!