He Leaves Soon

Well, here we go! Our journey starts the 20th of this month, a week from this Thursday. Oh man, I have been over reacting ever since his recruiter told him that he was excepted! I mean don't get me wrong, I was ecstatic for him very happy but inside I felt like it was the end of the world. I was freaking out, thinking oh my goodness, I'm barely going to see him, he's going to find someone else, he's going to stop loving me. lol... silly things us girls think. In the end, the relationship is fine. Anyway, so back to what I was saying, my man leaves next week Thursday... gosh it's so soon! And for the past 2 weeks I've been arguing with him for stupid things! Gosh I really hate that?! I wish I could go back in time and be nicer. lol... but I can't do that so now all I can do is make the best of what I have of him as a civilian instead of a navy pilot.
Man, I'm so scared of the fact that he wont be around. I have been accustomed to get a phone call every night and he saying, "Hey, babe, just wanted to let you know I'm headed to bed, I love you, sleep well" and of course we'd talk for a while. Starting the 30th of September he'll be like a ghost, all I'll know is that he is in Rhode Island and I wont be able to even see/ talk nor kiss him. How depressing...
I'm tearing up while write this... The worst part of all is that first, he leaves the 20th and makes the trip up in car to see his family and say bye to them and then on the 30th he's in OCS. Then my parents leave the 24th to Switzerland for 2 weeks?! The worst part is that I'm going to be alone when he's gone!!! Completely alone, I have no one. I mean, I do but I wouldn't want my friends to see me in such a terrible state of mind. Especially since I'm the one that always hear them out, and constantly help them. It's going to be strange if they see me in such a zombie attitude.
My man is the better part of me, he lightens me up.. I can be myself with him. I feel full of life. He is dear to me and "I love him from here to the moon and back"- said by my man, except change him to her lol! I hope, we do well, this will be a trail for our relationship, we've been dating for 3 years and I know there will be more to come, until death do us part.
Please ladies, what can I do to keep myself sane while he's gone?
Richardsgirl87 Richardsgirl87
18-21, F
1 Response Sep 10, 2012

Dont focus on him leaving, focus on him and cherish the time u guys still have together, i kno its hard. My sailor just left the 14th of august and it was so hard. And of coarse i didnt want to hangout with my friends for awhile cuz they had thier bfs and it made it really hard to see all that. But all the girls on here kno wat ur feeling and were all here for u :) if u need someone to talk to u can txt me at 7028454328 at anytime girl :)

Thank you so much, I really appreciate your comment. I will definitely text you!

No problem girl :)