Only 11 More Weeks...

At least I hope. My sailor is supposed to come home in April, and even though its only been a week and a half since he left, it feels like forever. I literally feel incomplete without him here. I know I can be independent and do my own things, the problem is I would rather do them with him. Simple things like making dinner or watching a movie; I wish I was cooking for both of us or cuddled up in his arms.
Last night we were able to talk on Skype for a bit. He told me that as of right now he will probably get out after his 6 years. (Previously he wanted to make it a career) that is what has me stuck. I support his decision 100% regardless of what it is. I knew he had chosen the navy life when we got together. But, he changed his mind because of me. He said he would rather get out so that we could start a family and stay in one place. And sure, I like the sound of that. But at the same time I sort of feel like at this point he only wants it because of me. And I feel guilty because of it. Don't get me wrong, I know that planning things out is risky. In fact our plans could always end up changing a million times before we even reach this point. But I can't help but think about it. We've talked about marriage many times already. We made a verbal commitment to eachother already and intend to get married within the next couple of years- again if all goes according to plan. He is my everything. I would do anything for him, but I don't want him giving up his dreams for me. Opinions?
BB1006 BB1006
18-21, F
Jan 14, 2013