One Week Down.

So my boyfriend left a week ago tomorrow and I honestly feel like I'm going to go insane. Like literally I think I might be crazy. Everybody just keeps telling me to stay busy and keep my mind off of things. Which has helped, to a degree. I've got midterms for college this week and they've taken up the majority of my time which is good. But I can't seem to feel like there's this huge whole inside of my chest that just won't go away. For those of you who know Bella (from Twilight), haha. I think I feel her pain. But I'm still fully functional and like being around other people if you know what I mean. Lol, but I know everyone said the first week or two are the hardest. But the longest we've ever gone without talking is like 3 days and that was because he was in Mexico. He's my world and I feel like it just disappeared. Almost like this huge part of my life never existed. It's a really weird feeling and I was just wondering if any of you guys have felt the same way and if it gets any better? I'm sure it will, I mean it's only been a week. Once letters start coming I'll feel like he's still real and not just a good year long dream. Lol. Well I'm off to study for more midterms. I'd never thought I'd be thankful for them. Haha, thanks for the advice. :)

akchristiangirl akchristiangirl
18-21, F
3 Responses Mar 2, 2010

I know exactly how you feel. Even though I've started getting letters, I still feel incomplete, like a gigantic hole has been ripped right through my stomach.<br />
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When you talked about Bella, I remembered how when my boyfriend left I kept staring at my New Moon calendar I had gotten for Christmas and it happened to be of Bella in her zombie-I-can't-function state. I looked at it and thought "I know what that feels like". So someone else making that connection made me giggle.

it will get easier when you get the first letter. time will start going by a little faster too, but it is always hard. my boyfriend just graduated and it felt like the second month of him being gone went by soo fast. its a huge change and a lot to get used to for both of you. stay strong, he will need a lot of support from you to make it through boot camp, but always remember that he misses you as much as you miss him.

its really hard in the beginning cause you're thrown into this new phase even though all it is is you spend more time alone but that is huge if you guys spent most of your time together. its funny you mentioned bella cause i saw new moon and when it came out my bf was going into week 3 of bootcamp and i was depressed like she was lol. but anyways it does get easier, some days are better than others, you'll make it out okay :)