I Am More Accepting Of It Now But Still Hide It.

I think I don't look like the stereotypical nerd but I love acting like one. I am in my 40's and I still haven't let my true nerdness come out. LOL. Sometimes I like talking about geeky stuff like computers and technology with a person I work with but try not to get too deep when others are listening to us. There are a few times that I let loose but far and in between.
I used to play the violin up until 10th grade, but quit because it wasn't cool. (Plus I wasn't that good)
Growing up in high school, for the most part science and math came easy for me but I tried to act cool and did things like drugs to make people think I was not a nerd. Sometimes I hide my intelligence. Not like I'm a genius or anything but I like nerdy stuff like science and computers and such. Some people used to trip out on how such a smart guy like me could do drugs and hang with the druggies.
(By the way, my children have no idea on my former drug use and my family never knew about that side of my life and I hope to keep it that way)
Now I see my boys and girls have some part of my nerdness but I feel they don't accept. it
Especially my youngest who is going to be in fifth. Smart kid and talks like a nerd too. I love him so much. I want him growing up accepting his nerdness. Know what I mean?
One thing I don't like is people who are smart and want to show everyone how smart they are. Those are the bad nerds that give us good nerds a bad rap.
Sincerely Nerd undercover at times.
Jeusislife Jeusislife
41-45, M
2 Responses Jul 22, 2012

me too i am in 7th grade but i mean i tell my true friend about me being a nerd but i try to hide it but i cant not all the time

Needing to be undercover is a pain.

Yes it is but I've been learning to open up more and it feels so good when I do.