Looking For New Friends

I am 50 years old and have had people in my life that have been good friends. But I sometimes feel that after a while our friends get sick of hearing the same old thing. We get that look of "Ugh not again....get over it and move on." I have many challenges, and live with them daily. I like to think that I am a pretty positive person even though I've gone through a lot. But when I need to just talk or just vent with someone it seems like there is no one really there that gets it or wants to even listen. Maybe it's me, maybe I just don't want to bother anyone or I think they just don't really get me. I have Fibromyalgia and it's getting worse so it's a daily struggle, My boyfriend & I live together along with my 22 year old son....Not easy! My son is great but my boyfriend never had children so it's hard for him to understand what we parents go through. Lately I am feeling like I am alone and I don't like that feeling. I'm noticing that I just don't talk to anyone anymore, unless it's good stuff. I keep things to myself including the physical and emotional pain I am feeling. I cry in the shower by myself. I guess that's why I joined this site. I hope to connect with folks that have same things in common.
enblanco enblanco
46-50, F
3 Responses May 16, 2012

i need aunties or figures

They get programmed as they are growing up in this system and they dont have the maturity to see things as they really are. So if there is a strong influence in thier lives that makes us out to be unworthy of love, then we just have to wait till they start percieveing for themselves what the truth is, and that takes an ellement of maturity and lots of time.

I know how you feel as i have 3 boys and 2 girls, and 4 of them had been completely ignoreing my existance for 8 years.

That's so sad. Where did we go wrong?