Cannot Believe I Am On This Site...

I am anew member at experience project.. I have never been so lonely as I am now. My husband sleeps in a different room, does not call me, does not talk to me, no hugs, no kisses,  no sex. NOTHING. A big nothing.He disappears for nights and I have no idea where he is.  It would be better to be really alone  than to just be so lonely. Why am I even on this site , how can this help? I cry when I type this as it brings it into reality and denial seems to be better. That is my story. I think of the Beatles song alot.. One is the loneliest number , two can be as bad as one, its the loneliest number since the number one....

alwaystearful alwaystearful
51-55
1 Response Mar 14, 2009

I know exactly how you feel , you just descibed my wife for the past 8 years. I joined this site last night and am totally new at this kind of thing but I like you need a safe place where I can talk to others like us. I feel very sad about my situation and have tried to make it better but nothing has worked. I know my wife is narcessistic (I didnt even know what that is until recently) so I know I have to move on but with kids involved it just breaks my heart. I have recently meet a beautiful caring woman who has been divorced for a few years but I am having trouble getting closer to her because I will be doing exactly what is hurting me and dont think it would be fair to her. So theirs my lifes short story. <br />
On the positve side, I know their are better days ahead and I pray every day that God will help me and I know that he will.<br />
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I feel better already and I hope that you do too.<br />
Yuor new friend