Introducing... Me

[stands up]

Hi, my name is Silly Fool and I am a new Experience Project member. 

I came across this site a few days ago when I was surfing the internet looking for somebody else in the same shoes I was in.  Two months ago I was engaged and going to get married.  One month ago I found out she was having an emotional affair (and a little bit of physical cheating.  Two weeks ago after she broke it off with the other person, he came in our house and sexually assaulted her.  It is a bit much to handle.

These events are how I came to be here, but they do not define who I am.  They are at the forefront of my mind right now becaue I am still dealing with it all.

When not dealing with a S*** circus, I am somebody who likes a wide range of things.  I am equally happy at a classical concert, or a rock concert.  I am a big sports fan - particularly college sports, but I am also a big fan of live theater.  I have a graduate degree, but from time to time watch professional wrestling (which I think is a great way to shut down all of my brain cells for a rest).  I love travel and photography, but don't do either as much as I should.

I have a professional career some people envy (and others hate) but I don't like it. 

I am very open minded and my basic rule in life is do whatever you want as long as you don't hurt anybody.

I am sometimes spiritual, sometimes agnostic. I am sometimes liberal, sometimes conservative. 

I am an enigma.

I am 39 and still trying to figure out what I want to be when I grow up.

I am here to read people's experiences. To hear other points of view. To be anonymous and make anonymous friends. 

There is safety in anonymity - we can be honest - we can be ourselves without fear.

Glad to meet you.

SillyFool SillyFool
36-40, M
5 Responses Jul 8, 2009

This is a beautiful post. It's emotionally raw and true, with conflicting interests and trust in others to welcome the sincerity. My only disappointment in reading it was that it was posted 5 years ago.

Hi! Your name are 2 words my 3 year old niece uses after she answers a question I should've already known the answer any case, welcome aboard!!!

Welcome :). Im a new joiner too and I like your worldview

Welcome human. I just joined today. I am dealing with an alcoholic husband and instead of being co-dependent and trying to MAKE him be happy or feel better--I am here adding my two cents to the other unhappy campers out here.<br />
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Love is harsh. I can tell you though if you just had this issue with her, you are going to have another one before too long. I just don't know why we have these fatal attractions. This is the first time in my life that I have felt like I'm facing a really bad situation with all the right tools at my disposal. They aren't in my hand or I'd lone you one but I would highly recommend that you take a long walk, jog on the beach or go roller skating, alone! Let the wind fly in your face.<br />
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If it's too late to do that where you are, join me in searching out these other people who need two or three kind words tonight. I can't tell you how much better I'm feeling for doing it. That sick feeling that was in the pit of my stomach is changing. Now if you don't want to feel better, that's another problem and that signals that you are probably going to have even more future problems than I mentioned.

Well Silly fool welcome to EP!