Lonely and Waiting ....................................

W ell i met my husband while he was in a half way house. I didnt judge because I am a widow of a husband before who made a  mistake when he was a teenager and got 6 yrs and I waited for him. well on and off it was hard. But we clicked immediately he got drunk one nite and left the halfway house, i begged him on the phone not too but he wanted to be with me we  lived with eachother for 3 months then i figured if we were gonna have a future hiding out  like this sucked and he  might as welll go back and finish wat little time he had left. so he turned himself in july1st, and july 5th i found out i was pregnant, he couldnt be happier its his first baby. iM HAppy too just feel so alone going to all these ultrasounds and stuff on my own my first obgyn appt is oct 29 n im gonna have to stay hes in bc getting his stuff again.  I have on one to lean on my family had abonded me my mom died a couple months after my first husband they are really all i had that cared about me. Im dreading the phone bill....................its gonna be awful.  So he gets out oct 12 he sees the board and can hopfully convince them he was only out taking care of me. If not his state dec is dec 19 they both seem so far away when im sitting here getting bigger and bigger and feeling the everyday miracles. I want him out so bad it hurts down in the pit  of my stomach thats how much I LOVE HIM. We cant wait to be married but i WANNA  look like a princess, not a beached whale lol. well thats it in a  nutshell. I miss him soooooooooooooooooo much and love him god bless him.