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         I am a pretty addictive person in the main anyways. For years, when I was taking drugs I couldn't take just a little. No, that just wasn't me. I had to take lots and lots. Exercise. When I was in my mid twenties and feeling a little bit unhealthy, I didn't just exercise a little....I planned out a daily routine.

         Same with sex. Y'know, being brought up by a prostitute mother isn't something that most people have to deal with. It opens your eyes to a way of living. A way of 'being'. For me it was the norm. I mean, it was my life and my family. It was my experiences. My mum. I thought that all mum's did the same! When I got to a reasonable age - of 9 - I kinda realised the 'differences' between my mum and other friend's mums. You kind of put it all together.

          So experiencing that life, being around that 'lifestyle' did kind of bring me down another road. A road that I liked the look of. A road that was appealing. Mum made prostitution look oh so glam, y'know? The clothes, the makeup, the jewellery, the sex. All enticing to me. So I started travelling that road too.

          When I entered prostitution, at the age of 13, I had observed stuff but still didn't quite know what to expect. Boy did I find out! In some ways I was enthusiastic to be like my mum....But in more ways I just found that I was getting 'hard wired' for sex. It didn't take long, I suppose it doesn't when you're 13, to have sex and prostitution interlinked and have it always on my mind. Still pretty much is.

          Sex had lost it's link with being something about relationships and became something more. It's really wierd. That's one of the reasons I always seem to talk about how many punters I've ****** a night. A kind of bragging? Maybe. More a case of needing though....

          Analysing it all somewhat, what is the reason why I am a streetwalker? Why can't I be, like, an escort? I always say that I prefer quantity over quality. Banging guys in 15 or so minutes and then out on the streets looking for the next punter. Whilst this is true, it hides the fact that I have an addiction to sex. That's it right there.

          I mean, I'd like to say that I am pretty enough, even at the age of 40, to be an escort....only having a couple of 'dates' a night. But I don't want that. I have an addiction, and....like all addictions, it leaves you wanting more and more and more...

          This road has lead me down some dark places. Abortions. Getting divorced from my husband. Losing my daughter in that battle. Cocaine  addiction. Getting raped. No fun had there, let me tell you. Partners? They come and go. All because I can't stay faithful. Like I said, I'm 'hard wired'.

          With sex and prostitution hand in hand it's only natural I spend a lot of time on my appearance. Then from looking like a street hooker to acting like one....the decadadent  lifestyle of drink and drugs. My circle of friends is pretty much limited to other prostitutes....or punters. It's all consuming at times. Difficult to breathe....

          The hardest time? When I'm on my period. My daughter, who is also a prostitute, lives nearby. Sometimes I really hate to be around her. I can smell the sex off of her....the punters. Makes me frustrated. Sometimes I even cry....

         I had some time away from prostitution....getting back with my ex hubby. That was really hard. We moved to another country, in the countryside. Nothing to do. I was so very low. I cried so much.....all because of being addicted to sex....to being a prostitute. I left him...came back home and, within hours, I was back selling myself on the streets. I felt so happy, but ashamed of leaving him. And for what? Sex. There was more to it than that but that's what it boiled down to for me...

          Being addicted to sex can be a nightmare! All day, every day - even when i'm doing my sports - all I think of is...what shall I wear? How many punters will I ****?

          It's a strange ol' life mine is....

          Sammy Jo Duponte xx
     
SamanthaTheStreetwalker SamanthaTheStreetwalker 41-45, F 59 Responses Dec 8, 2010

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Thanks for sharing your insights - wow!

That's such a wonderful story, Samantha. My life is currently heading that very same way. I have 2 very different jobs; one working in a bank, and the other for the last few years working as a prostitute for your daughter......
The way she 'walks it like she talks it' and how you are very frank in your stories and blogs is very intoxicating....very heady....for a woman that secretly wanted to be that 'kind' of girl.....
I have an amazing husband who put forward this way of life to me....something that I would never have thought really again about.....but he has encouraged me every step of the way....
I too believe I am a nymphomaniac and I feel that sharing my body with men and women is fulfilling......and getting them to pay for it too? Simply breathtaking......
Just thought that I should write something.....

Carla xx

Thanks Carla but, duck, I didn't write this as an invite to prostitution; this is what this 'condition' has done to me - led me down the route of prostitution.
I find, in general, lots of women/girls write to me and say great things and fantasise about having a prostitute, like myself, as their mother.....to encourage them to be prostitutes themselves....
Now, nothing could be further from the truth! Just ask my Martika; I gave her crap and fought with her for a couple of years before having to face reality.....
You do what you wish to do....what makes you happy.....my experiences are just that; my experiences.....
Thank you....

Sammy Jo xx

So interesting :o)

You are a very strong woman, by nature & in spirit. Please add me. I'll be happy if you'd do that. If I'm ever in the UK I'm definitely going to look you up.
Thanks, Bruce

Thank you for your honesty. Please add me as a friend.

That is so darn hot!!! Would you please add me...

Add a response...

Very interesting. Hasn't here been a person or more, male or female, that was really an exciting experience

Thank you so much for sharing

Sam that was a great story I have also been down the road of drug addiction I started very young Thank goodness it didn't kill me like a lot of old friends of mine . I was very wild when younger . I still have the addictive behaveyour I am married 19 years now and have 2 kids boys I have used prostitute for my sex addiction I like the rush of not knowing what mite happen and a deferent lady I like to try new thing and ladies but they stopped the website that I went to. So I go to a massage polar that I know of for my pleaser . The sex in my mirage sucks if I can even get any so I look for sex some were else if not ********** I like to be watched as I pull on my **** and make good and hard I think that is a another addiction. I love watching good home made sex videos group sex and swing. One of my friends that has move now used to share his wife with me we would do her for what seemed hours the best sex I have had in years I would like to find more friends like them and my wife found out and thing were rough for a while . I have talked to her about swing our sharing but know way she is not into this I still love her but she is know good in bed so I go now dreaming about some good sex some day before it to late . Thank you for sharing your story I would love it if you would add me as a friend .
Tom

Well, Sam, I know that this story of yours is ages old, but I've just stumbled over it.
I think that you are absolutely remarkable, and you leave me humbed. I truly mean that.
I love women and sex and, being in a sexless marriage, am sort of addicted to it.
I fell for a girl, via a chatline, who became a pro and she fell for me. At first we had great trust, but she fell into the wrong hands and became an addict and I could no longer trust her.
By trust, I meant not to tell my wife.
I think that I still love her - I am a very loving, non judgmental guy.
I don't know what to say except what a wonderful example you are to a lovely woman caught up in something from which she could not escape.
You need to be loved by people who understand and accept you as you are.
I hope that is the case.
Thank you Sam and thank you EP so being so broad in your catchment.
Peter xx

Thank you....

I am loved and cherished and have a life outside of prostitution as well as in it....

:-)

Samantha xx

Thats a fascinating story and so well explained. I think everyone has their own idea of what a prostitute is but without any first hand knowledge. I think this is very helpful for people like me who want to understand. I'm sure as in any lifestyle the people and reasons are many and varied but I now have a better understanding. I'm rambling I think but thank you for the insight

Thank you for reading it....

Samantha xx

Remind me of Levottomat, Your condition is much worse than that.

Brutally honest and yet full of tenderness and warmth - Thanks for sharing and for being so truthful!

Thank you for reading it....

;-)

Samantha xx

Ok. Might be i wil help u if ur in dubai.

you\'re so kind.

hey sam...i understand completely what you're coming from...my ex used to joke that i was a 'male *****' cuz' i slept with ANYONE who came my way..must be my scorpion tendencies..lol

still, i find that the most INCREDIBLE sex i have had has been with my wife...a spiritual and loving experience because u care about the person...not just a physical addiction...have u ever felt this way?

Yes.....having that 'connection' with my partner it does take on such a different feeling and intensity.....

But my partner, thank goodness, she accepts this other side of me that needs 'feeding'....

Samantha xx

Thank you, hun...

I had done heroin, back in the day. Please check out my blog series, "A Pros Life" parts 1-9....

I worked in a brothel for a number of years, about 4, and all of us were made to take heroin, amongst other drugs...

Did I manage to keep it in check? Well, with ALL of it, I managed to date and marry my eventual husband.....and we were together for about 3 years during that time!

Naturally, once he found out about my line of work - my pimp told him, so as to keep me working for him...kinda didn't work! - then everything went to hell in a handcart....and he left me....

Others using heroin and staying "normal"? Nobody I have known....all were hardcore IV drug users...

Samantha xx

Awwwww shucks!

I'm getting older these days, hun, and I have had a bit of a habit in picking to be friends on EP with some very crazy people! So, just sometimes, I don't trust my judgement and add nobody! Didn't know you even wanted to 'virtually' hang out until you mentioned it! Lol!

Well, the Leps are the soundtrack to my life, alongside KISS, Heart, DP and the glorious Dan Reed Network.....

I think from 'High 'N Dry' to 'Retroactive' you couldn't touch them! They went through a spell, around 'X' where I wasn't the happiest of bunnies, but 'Songs...' was an amazing turn back to those glory days!!!

Yes? Never quite listened to them, apart from 'Tales Of....', which was quite hard to digest....much preferred early (Gabriel era) Genesis or Rush! UFO? Don't think I heard enough of them really.

Got 'Strangers....' and that is pretty happening....in some ways, I take UFO like Saxon; know they're about but not really listened much to them.....

However, with Saxon, I have come to appreciate them a lot more.

Got a punter that showed me how to play 'Wheels Of Steel' on guitar!

:-)

Happy days!!!!!!

Samantha xx

Lol!

Ok....so that Yes album wasn't suppose to be that great....I get it! Lol! My bad?

Well, Genesis are a new thing for me - just the last 3 years or so. I have some great bootlegs from their final, "The Lamb...", tour....funny PG trying to explain to the audience the concept! ;-)

However, I got given 'Duke' and thought that was a pretty neat album! Agreed with the trio stuff, to a degree....bit like musical wallpaper (but in which that wallpaper could REALLY play!)

Rush? Been a fan forever! Like yourself, that period (I'd say from '2112' onwards to 'Hold Your Fire'/'A Show Of Hands', some what? 14/15 years?) was a milestone in music....gigs? '88 was full of them! Kiss, Def Leps, Rush, Jovi at the end of it (I think!)....back when the Donington Featival was amazing!!! Interestingly enough, I was at the Brum gig that Rush did their "A Show..." Album/vid from! I've even seen myself there!!! :-)

Not forgetting Queensryche ! My first club gig, playing "Operation:Mindcrime" almost in it's entirety.....and that album was out on my 18th birthday!!!

So.....in a band too? Wow! What were you called?

Samantha xx

In a nutshell, I think so.....

I've worked in a brothel.....didn't like it....got told what to wear, how to act, what to say etc....

Boring!!

Plus the pimp, well, I hated! Won't go into that....but one of the girls pretty much stopped eating for a whole week because he said she was fat!

So....not on!

On the streets I am my own boss....no overheads apart from condoms.....and nobody to pay to maid.....so I get all the money I earn!

Simple really!

:-)

Samantha xx

:-)

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Luckily, I've been pretty healthy....had one std and been fine for a very long time now....

It's a case of finding balance, for me, which I have now....between career - and yes, after almost 30 years in the business I do see it as a career - and time with my partner and family.....

Thank you...

Samantha xx

What std's have you picked up?

Oh Buck!!

Well, I wouldn't say it was ALL bad but feeling drawn towards something all the time can be quite emotionally tiring....

Truth being that it has screwed up lots of my relationships, both of a sexual nature and of a friendship level, over time...

THAT was the most hurtful thing....

Certain parts of society believed, and I think still do, that prostitution is 'catching' - you spend time with someone who is on the game and you get 'infected' too!!

Obviously, not so!!

Through all the hardships and rape, drugs and drink and abuse that I got, the lack of respect from others just made it worse....

These days, of course, I am happy and content. Still working the streets? Sure. But also spending time with my loved ones too...

I could have gone like my own mum....

Luckily, my relationship is strong and my partner is accepting of me how I am...

Samantha xx

Thank you for those kind words.....

No, don't pity me, please.....

My reason for writing this was to explain that, with this, my life is a bit like balancing on a razor's edge....

But, I believe that you transpose it to, oh I'd say an alcoholic having his first drink of the day, a worker having his first coffee of the day.....heck, even someone that is used to having a shower first thing in the morning!

Ok, not quite so extreme, but the concept is the same...

For me, I exercise.....that helps keep things at bay.....

But sometimes I'm just like some ferrel cat.....just rubbing up against someone because I need to mate....

My life is fine... I am content and I am happy with being the person that I am....

If you need someone to talk to then, by all means, message me....

Thank you....

;-)

Samantha xx

You can always message me on here....

What I like? I'm a veggie, love to keep healthy and workout, I do part time counselling, I have a cat, I love music, I am 'married', I have a daughter with another on the way....love to cook, am a Sci Fi nut, love movies and reading and tv.....

;-)

Sammy Jo xx

Thank you...

It's fair to say that a lot of people on EP write about many subject matters...many and varied...

Myself, being a hooker is only one aspect of my life....my interests and ideas and ideals are many and varied. My background and experiences lead me to who and what I am now....

The nymphomania aspect does impinge on other parts of my life....and it has it's issues....but I live with it and work around it....

Sammy Jo xx

I think you are great. You have many ideas and ideals. What other areas of life do you enjoy? Do you like to cook? Or do out door things? I'm a guy so I am very out door kind of person. I would like to correspond with you by email. How would you feel about that?

I am new to this site and found you on someone else's friend list. I read all your stories and I hope you add me as a friend. I have never had sex with a prostitute and not sure that I will, but Your stories help me realize that regardless of our back ground and experiences we can add and enrich each other lives if we are open and accepting. I find you very interesting. I come from a very different back ground. I would like to get to know you much better.

Thank you....sometimes a cold shower works....sometimes not!

Sammy Jo xx

tysm for sharing, its not easy to share stuff like this I bet. I mean anything so personla and this is very personal. I find it inspiring too, and think youre amazing. I Am adicted to being creative, and I know I have a high sex-drive, tho not addicted like this or anything. but I know my sexual urges help my creaticity for sure. Ty again, loved your words, they touched me :)

cool story, well written (-;

Well, when you're being led by your ***** wanting to be filled all the time it can get a little draining, honey!

Sure, in the main I love the life I lead....but sometimes you just want to relax and love being normal......

Sammy Jo xx

You make it sound horrible but it must have been fun also? Nothing is wrong with being oversexed! You can't help yourself. Just have sex and don't fight it. I don't think there is a thing wrong with accepting money. I admire your occupation. Think of the stress that you relieve in people every night. You probably have changed the course of many men but for the better. I applaud you!!!

Thank you. Well, these things are very real and, to use EP right, I believe you have to be as open and honest as you can.....sometimes to show yourself in a positive way, sometimes in a negative light.....

But always there to educate....

Sammy Jo xx

Yeah.....it is, I guess, the story behind the story......

Thank you....

Sammy Jo xx

Nice story Im a sex addict to

This was a great story! I loved getting a glimpse of how you feel and really think, its the story behind the story.

Hey babe! I'm glad you like what I've written....

Yeah, not doing too bad....same old issues though...

Sammy Jo xx

I read more joyful stories written by you. How are you doing now? xW

Ah....Derby has it's moments! Thank you...

Yeah, the addiction to sex causes me to work the streets....when I should be coming home from a normal, everyday job, to my girl, Karen....

Relationships are hard....

Sammy Jo xx

I really prefer street prostitutes. I used to work in Long Beach California. It was easy to find girls on the street. Everything is so straightforward and easy. Now I live in Reno Nevada. The city wants a cleaner image so it is hard to find girls on the street. So now it is finding a girl on reno.backpage.com or Myredbook.com. I call her up then go to meet her or she comes to meet me. NO SPONTENAITY!
I remember driving home and seeing a babe on the street and I would just have to **** her. God I miss that!

Derby must be a great place. It has the Duponte babes!

You may be addicted to sex, but you make the world a better place. ;-)

What an interesting story. Your story is both candid and moving. I think you should be proud of yourself for seeing your life as it is. I lived most of my life in Europe and coming back to America and seeing the difference in attitudes about prostitution was absolutely dumbfounding.

Americans by and large need to grow up and get away from the Puritan ethic. They would be much happier people. Thank you for a view on your thoughts.

That's pretty deep!

I am more sensitive than I let on, I do know that...

Thank you...

Sammy Jo xx

I've stopped now, but used to do it a few times every single night....

No....coke doesn't really alter the fact that i love to ****! That's it... It's a major part of who I still am.....

Sammy Jo xx

your an amzing women how many times a week you do cocaine and when do you do it.

i m a nymphomaniac too,but just after havin sex gives some feeling which is not explainable and my biggest lure of life also does'nt appeal me is it same for u too

I would want to talk to you all the time, It sounds like you are an intelligent, expoerienced woman. Frankly you are all woman. Maybe more than the husband or most men could handle. Wow.

Its a lonely story Samantha, makes me a bit sad. We cannot choose where we are born, and we will also love our mothers, so where do you go. You have to know something else to know what choices you have. I wonder if you removed the occasional cocaine where would you be, how would you feel. Do you wonder what the future holds or are you like the rest of us too busy living to give it much thought. XX

Thank you...<br />
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I think that you have to honest with yourself before being honest to others. In many ways, my counselling of others with 'similar' issues, or have had addictios, has helped enormously in that respect.<br />
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When I look at myself I see a woman who IS caring...who IS considerate....who DOES love the friends and family around me....<br />
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It's certainly hard to love a prostitute, of that I do know, and the basis of human interraction is to feel loved, to feel safe and to feel secure.....that can be so very hard in this life.<br />
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Love is the only thing that really matters in life and, for some, there isn't any difference between love and sex....<br />
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For me there is...<br />
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Luckily, I have the love of my life with me....we've made a commitment to each other and, of knowing me from years ago, my partner Karen fully accepts me as I am. So, thankfully I have that love...<br />
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The sex part? That's an endless struggle. I DO get excited every night I head out to work. I do get excited after I realised how many men (and women) I have 'gone' with on that particular night.<br />
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The money is fine, but like I said, is not the main reason...<br />
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I can't think of a life without prostitution, I really can't......and, of the nights that I have dreamed that my 'career' was over I have woke up perspiring and upset...<br />
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In that way old age is upsetting....<br />
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But.....live in the now..<br />
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For now, at 11:38 on Saturday 27th August 2011 I am happy...<br />
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That's all one can ask for...<br />
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Samantha xx

Your honesty, intelligence and acceptance of others is something I really love about you.<br />
Thank you for an insight into some of the complexity that contributes to who you are. We're all kind of shaped and driven by our past experiences, but not many people have the ability to unpack it so clearly.

Ok.....<br />
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Yes, I do female punters.....I'm bisexual, so that's a given! Dumb....sometimes I do love it, and sometimes it's a chore...It's annoying when my emotions rule my life...Mother..Payment IS good! £400 + a night? 6 nights a week? Yeah, money no ob<x>ject really....<br />
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It's just complicated at times....such is life..<br />
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Thanks for writing, y'all...<br />
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Samantha xx

I hope the payment is good.

im confused sammie...do u like bein addicted 2 sex like u r or do u wish it was difrent 4u?

Thank you. Rationalizing these feelings and desires is pretty easy....but the emotions do control me a lot. But then again, I'm pretty happy with the life 'choice' that I have made. It's the kill two birds with one stone scenario...<br />
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Samantha xx

Thank you...I try my best to "process" through my feelings....why I do such things, y'know?<br />
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Samantha xx

I feel empathy with you i am also have an addictive personality mostly drink, i have given it up and then when i go back on it i go twice as hard, but a very good in depth look at yourself you to me are wasted being a prostitute as you sound very intellegent but as you have stated you need to be on the game to quench that addiction just as i need to work to quench mine, Oscar wilde once said that " work is the curse of the drnking mans classes"

Why fascinating? I'm just me, y'know? Maybe it's just reading and watching all that Sci Fi stuff when I was younger! I dunno....<br />
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Thanks...<br />
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Samantha xx

Fascinating - I've met several horny ***** in my life, but not a full-blown nymphomaniac. A strong drug, it seems. Considering how miserable you were staying away from hooking, your present arrangement seems like the best alternative - finding someone who accepts you 'as is'. That being said, you are one sexy ****. Wouldn't mind getting some of the action ;) Add me

You Are So Highly Fascinating to me. I love how you word your thoughts while painting such vivid wordscapes. I find the immense clarity of thought and intelligence in you to be profoundly inspiring. Samantha, thank you again for befriending me, and for being communicative.

Thanks hun. I am and I'm not, y'know? He was my first love and, as such, there's always those thoughts and feelings that go along with that. Currently I am back with an ex girlfriend who has seemed to change in the last 6 years.....she didn't care what I did with men, but other women? Ooohhhh, start wars that would! She's more relaxed about it now. She is the OTHER love of my life and I can honestly say that I'm very happy. Obviously, those feelings about being a nymphomaniac are still there with me but I'm, hopefully, in a more stable relationship....and, to be fair, I have been able to 'stay away' from prostitution for 1 day every week since she's been back with me...<br />
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That would never have happened before...<br />
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Thanks...<br />
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Samantha xx

Yeah, but I sense that you're still emotionally attatched to your hubby, which,Dear Heart, is self defeating, as he obviously can't accept your needs and support you in them. There are men with the proper outlook to accept you working in the sex industry, but you must have deeded your heart to a man who can't stand it, though he may have in the beginning. If that is the case, I feel your turmoil. Bless You, Dear.

Great story, amazing life - thanks so much for sharing. Also, I agree with jimmyrudyjump, if you can find inner peace, now matter how, then so what?<br />
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All the best,

Yeah.....I guess that's right. Thanks hun....<br />
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Samantha xx

As long as you feel good about it and about yourself -which is the case- then there's no real harm. Bar the occasions you had to go through a less "pleasant" aspect of sex...<br />
Luckily, you are level-headed enough to accept things as they are. To accept yourself as you are. Which is a great advantage you have over other women.<br />
The ability to relativate, to find inner peace... : )

Errrh...something like that I s'pose...<br />
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Thanks...<br />
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Sammy Jo xx

That sounds like a tough life. Thank you for letting us see inside a world men will never understand.