I'm Slowly Becoming More Confident About My Pangenderism

My story started when I first questioned my gender somewhere around my 1st year of secondary school. I have always been a rather tomboyish girl. Back in primary school "gender" wasn't really significant to me, as I perceived myself just as "myself". When I graduated I became a bit uncomfortable with being physically a girl, which was showing more, because my body was becoming more and more mature. I thought I felt more like a boy. I looked at other males with a bit of jealousy.

In secondary school I befriended with very open-minded people and they helped me find out where I belonged. They treated me as a boy for a while (I looked like one anyway) - it was an experiment. During that period of time I realized I'm not completely comfortable with being male either. I decided then that I would just be myself, because i was a bit tired of trying to figure out who I am. But the matter of my gender still bugged me, because it's hard to belong nowhere. 

In my 3rd year of secondary school I came across pangenderism and I got that impulse that this is what I've been looking for all this time! After I've read many articles about this and stories of other pangenders and after a lot of arguing with myself about whether I'm sure I think I'm becoming more confident about my pangenderism at last.

Of course there's still a lot of doubts and uncertainty...

*sorry for any English mistakes
CoEfI CoEfI
16-17
1 Response Feb 24, 2012

I'm glad you're finding out who you are and who you identify with. It really blows not belonging somewhere, yeah, so I'm really glad for you. :)