Paraplegia Due To Motorcycle Accident

I had experience riding/driving motor vehicles since the age of five. Starting out on a 1985 Honda TRX 125 four-wheeler, driving my parents stick-shift cars on the farm and by the age of twelve trading up to a two-stroke 1993 Honda CR 125 motorcross bike. I knew how to ride!

I was in a motorcycle accident June 15, 2009 on a 2002 Yamaha YZF 600. According to the police report it was a clear, sunny day. I had not had a drink of alcohol in over six months. I've no idea why I was out on the road that I ended up crashing. I had just quite satisfactorily finished an exam that morning in a class of summer school; I am a 31 year old old man who finally made it back to college and into a great university, the University of Virginia, to study mechanical engineering.

I don't remember the actual cause of the accident (which frustrates the living hell out of me), but I remember almost everything else. I remember sliding accross the road with the knowledge of impending doom. I remember the first impact of my body against the first of three trees and the resulting revolution to impact of the remaining. I remember the deafening silence following the ceasing of my progress.

I ended up on the side of a road on a hill out of view of traffic (the little bit that there was.) I remember trying to climb up this hill with my hands, realizing I wasn't getting much, or rather any, help from my lower appendages (later it was found that I had also broken both of the bones in my left forearm, yet did not feel a thing at that point.) I could do nothing at that point but cry out in the weakest of voice for help. Turns out I broke my left hip and forearm, multiple, multiple ribs, my back and my neck. Luckily enough the neck break did not result in the severing of my spinal cord.

Help did come in the form of a woman who happened to hear my bike coming, to this apparently notorious turn, yet did not hear it leaving. She was henceforth referred to as my guardian angel.

I remember little after that but random voices here and there. Ended up in an induced coma for ten days and when I woke recall having had the most vivid and quite disturbing dreams of my life. I won't get into those right now ;) I was in the hospital for about a month and then went to rehab at the Shepherd Center in Atlanta for about another month. Things seemed okay, or at least manageable, for a while thereafter.

Thinks did not continue to be okay.

Surprisingly enough, it was not so much the loss of mobility that really got me down but, rather, the incessant issues with bladder and bowels (I'm a T6, by the way.) That, coupled with being taken off of narcotic pain killers after nine months of continual use, has put me in a state of mind that I would not wish upon anyone.

I don't want to continue to go on, yet I cannot afford to quit. I'm not one to go the suicide route, probably just out of fear, and I obviously cannot go back to the manual labor jobs to which I was qualified before the accident. I guess I have to continue with my studies even though it has become exponentially more difficult.

I get relatively little pleasure out of life and instead am riddled with chronic pain. Let me ask the obligatory question, "Why has God forsaken me?" Know what?, I believe that I have lost my belief in the man I for so long held so dear.


Love and respect to anyone going through similar circumstances!!

jjs7g jjs7g
31-35, M
5 Responses Apr 19, 2010

My husband is going through the exact same thing right now( T 7). he is having a really hard time right now. any suggestions?

hi,<br />
i just wanted to tell you that i understand your dilemma. I had depression few month ago and it was so hard that i didn't want to live anymore. Every single breath was like torture, it was painful but i didn't have the courage to end my life. Even my faith in god was gone. With some help from my friend and my family, I’m better now. i can tell that i like before but at least i can move on in my live. <br />
I’m sure that you'll do the same. You’re young, strong and I’m sure that you'll find out that you have so much qualities (good one) and skills that you wouldn’t even imagine.<br />
I’ll pray for you and i hope you the best.<br />
I’m sorry for my English. I’m French-speaking person.<br />
Good night

Hi. I am sorry to hear of you accident and other issues following it.<br />
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I was 50 years old had just served 22 years in the army, been there,seen it, done it.<br />
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Two wars, including the gulf, 9 tours of Northern Irleland. Not one serious injury sustained, and I was very very active . I was out of the army, 4 years when a woman with a kid in the back of her car, turned round to look at it, swerved across the road, took me off my bike and paralysed me from the chest down, with limited arm/hand function and LOTS OF PERMANENT PAIN. All my life I have been a fair, honest and compassionate man. I could not have been left a paraplegic, or a full tetraplegic. If left a para, I would have continued to be active. If left a full tetra, chances of survival of 2/3 years max. Good Good. BUT NO, I just had to be left in the middle, dumped with all of the pain, indignity of bowel and bladder problems, people having to make me go to the toilet, by hand, wash me etc. NOPE, I no longer believe that there is someone up there who care, or is " infinitely just, infinitely good and indefinitely merciful" as the good book say's. <br />
Three other choices and I get none so YEP I am SOOOOOOO NOT a believer now.<br />
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Be safe<br />
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Thank you for sharing your story. I’m sorry that you are suffering so much. Your accident was very tragic and has changed your life for sure. By your last paragraph I am assuming that you at one time believed in God and were perhaps familiar with the sc<x>riptures in the bible. You have had an accident or as the bible states you have been a victim of “time and unforeseen occurrence.” Ecclesiastes 9:11. <br />
Do not feel that you have been abandoned by God. More than anyone else, he cares for you. You can be confident that “Jehovah is near to those that are broken at heart; and those who are crushed in spirit he saves.” (Psalm 34:18)<br />
(by the way Jehovah is Gods personal name found at Psalms 83:18)<br />
No matter how tragic or severe your trial may be, Jehovah can give you the wisdom and strength to deal with it. (James 1:5-8) Through prayer you can draw close to God and he will draw close to you. He is the God of all comfort. The Bible tells us at Revelation 21:3,4 of a time when he (Jehovah God) will wipe out every tear from our eyes, and death will be no more, neither will mourning nor outcry nor pain be anymore. The former things have passed away. <br />
At Psalms 35: 5,6 Jehovah God promises that there will be a time when the eyes of the blind ones will be opened, and the very ears of the deaf one will be unstopped. At that time the lame one will climb up just as a stag does, and the tongue of the speechless one will cry out in gladness, These things will come true because at Hebrews 6:18 It says that it is impossible for God to lie. <br />
It will be a time of great joy when these promises are fulfilled. Until then we can pray for the strength to endure these trials. Do you have family close to you?

I'm in the exact same boat as you my friend, it sucks. I too was in a crash and ended up out of site from traffic only to be found by pure chance. Feel free to email me at